Wow. Doing way too much thinking tonight. Guess I do that when I am drinking. I feel like such a loser sometimes. I live with my Dad and 4 younger siblings. My job...well...it sucks. Vineyards, gotta love it. I just get so frustrated all the time. I hate where I am, what I have become. Sometimes I wonder if I can pull myself out of this hole that I am in. It seems like I can't, more often then not. God, getting emotional. I wish my Mom was still alive. I could talk to her about anyting. Venging and it sucks so I am going to shut up now. God, I hate feeling like this.
