ok so lately i've been tossing around the idea of friends with benifits. those of you who know me know its so not me. but i thought i could do it. well i was so wrong. i'm not that type of girl because i deserve better than that.
im not saying girls who have a friend with benifits are wrong. it may work out just fine for them. but it wouldn't for me. i decided when i was in eighth grade i was gonna wait until i was married to have sex, well that of course didn't work, but im glad i waited as long as i did.
i know ur first time isn't supposed to be magical, but the whole time i thought this is it? this is what i waited for? WTF u gotta be kiddin me. im not like other girls.(is it so wrong to like porn?) so that relationship lasted bout 6 months and i wasn't that heartbroken that it was over. he was way lame and it shouldn't have lasted that long, but i didn't wanna break his heart.
thats when i knew he so wasn't the one. i know exaclty who is and thats who i want to be with. if you're the type of guy who is only after a piece of ass, then you're so barkin up the wrong tree. im not tryin to be a bitch, but i know what i want and i wanna fall in love. i want a guy who is my best friend. i want someone who is ready for a serious commitment. im not like other girls.
someone i can talk to for hours and not be bored, someone i can be a goof ball with, someone who i can make fun of and they'll know that i'm only doing it cuz i love them. thats how i am. im silly and goofy and i don't take life too seriously cuz its soo short.
he also has to be a family oriented person. cuz i've wanted to be a mom since i was 5. if you already have kids, thats awesome. i been ready to be a mom. just keep in mind i'd like at least one of my own. most of my friends are married and have kids or are just in a serious relationship with kids, and i feel left out.
they can all relate to each other. i can relate on sum level cuz i help my sis with her kids, but i don't know what its like to have someone call you mommy. i want that so bad. i never knew what it was like to love another human being so much until my neice and nephew came into my life.
thats when my desire to become a mom became that much stronger. ok now that i got all that off my chest. im outtie. ttfn ~Lisa~
