hockeychick247's blog: "Poetry"

This is the one I wrote after we broke up. Why must this always happen to me? I find someone wonderful and now it's like it wasn't meant to be. Am I just fooling myself by thinkin you'd always care? If I turned around would you even be there? I wanted nothin more than to be with you hopin and prayin for somethin true. Maybe I'm not meant for anyone, maybe I'm just not meant to have any fun. So I ask this question will you always be my friend? Or are we just not meant to finish what we start? I just want this lonliness out of my heart. I'm so sick of all the pain, won't you please help me stop the rain? Please tell me you're gonna stay. That you have no intentions of ever going away. But if we're not meant to be just let me know then I guess I'll have to let you go. That is the last thing I want to do because I am so in love with you.

I wrote this back on 5/19/03 for my ex who i thought i'd be with forever. not so much. oh well enjoy. From the moment I met you I was in love A feeling so strong Truly sent from above. You won my heart you know its true I long for the day when We say I Do. It's you I want to spend the rest of my life with For nothing could ever compare to this. I love the way you make me laugh' and the way you hold me when I cry And I know we'll never say good-bye. No relationship is perfect, this I understand, Come with me now, take my hand. I promise to be there for you In good times and bad, I promise I'll try to never make you sad. You really are my best friend And I hope our love will have no end. So here's to spending forever with you Just always know I'm here and I'll forever love you. So much for it comin true. oh well he was a loser anyway. I'll save it for my next relationship cuz that'll be the one for sure. =o)

i don't understand how a guy can call himself a dad when he's NEVER around. i mean really is it too much to ask that you take care of your kids? cuz my sister sure as hell didn't climb on top of her self to get pregnant. do you have any idea how much these kids love you? and you seriously don't deserve their love. i have to bite my tongue when they ask about you and want me to tell them why their daddy hasn't come to pick his son up from school today or why he hasn't come to see him or his sister. sadly they'll know too soon what a real asshole you are until then you can bet your ass they'll be taken care of. because they're my niece and nephew, so they're my life. i love them as if they were my own kids. so don't worry you can continue to play your precious video games, and sleep all fuckin day. but you bet ur ass your kids will always have a place to sleep, food on the table, and clothes on their back. because i'll go broker than broke than to see those kids suffer. oh and lastly, they're gonna have one of THE best Christmas's and NOTHING is thanks to you. have a nice life you FUCKIN PIECE OF SHIT!!! I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL CUZ THATS WHERE U BELONG!!!

im so excited the holidays are here again. this is my favorite time of year. christmas is my favorite of all tho. it also makes me some what sad too tho. cuz i love being with my family and seeing the kids open their presents, but it also makes me feel seriously lonely. i just wish i had someone to spend the holidays with. i hate bein single at this time of year. it totally blows. and hangin with friends royaly sux cuz it reminds me that much more i'm the only single one. they're all married or on the verge of marriage and have kids and more on the way. i've learned to hide my feelings well. im good at being all happy on the outside, when in fact im miserible on the inside. oh well who knows maybe i'll end up bein with someone great next year. but for now i'm giving up on that. happy thanksgiving everyone ttfn ~Lisa

Each day I wake up feeling all alone, all I can do is sit and stare at the phone. Knowing you'll never call me again, but who am I kidding you hardly called me before. Its so hard not knowing whats in store. Everything seems so dark now and I'm so afraid, all I can do now is sit and draw the shade. Why can't I find my meant to be? Only then will things be brighter for me. Nobody knows how sad I am inside, for my true feelings are so easy to hide. So here I'll be all by myself, its time to put my heart back upon the shelf. I hope and pray that one day soon true love will come my way.

ok its frickin freezin now. im so not ready for winter and its pretty obvious its here. oh well guess i'll try and make the best of it. im countin down the days til my b-day. its not til jan, but im excited. its gonna be awesome i love havin my bday right after christmas. christmas is my favorite time of year. even tho i don't get a lot of gifts anymore, thats ok. i love watchin my neice and nephew opening their presents and seeing their excitment. thats what matters to me. i can't wait to have kids of my own. i wanna be a mom so bad. but now isnt' the right time. i know it'll happen when the time is right. so in the mean time i'll have fun with my sisters kids and my friends who are expecting right now. lol i know i'll be a great mom. i've been around kids all my life so i have plenty of experience. lol anyway gotta go do laundry and clean. boo lol ttfn ~Lisa =o)

today is my grandpa's 98th birthday. when i think about all he'se seen in his lifetime, i can't even begin to imagine what thats been like. he is the best. of course he isn't perfect, he needs a hearing aid cuz he can't hear that well anymore, walks with a cane, and is pretty demanding. he can't drive (thank God) so when he needs something from the store he'll call my mom cuz she's the closest. well he wants to go right that second and if we can take him right away, he gets mean. but i still love him. he is my last living grandparent and i feel so blessed to have had him in my life as long as i have. i'm pretty sure he'll live to be 100. that'd really be sumthin. oh well. just thought i'd write about that. ttfn ~Lisa

im so confused right now. there are things goin on at work and im freakin out. as if times weren't as tough, my hours got cut in half. so of course i gotta find another job, but i have no clue where to start. its times like this i wish i had my own place. i've always wanted my own day care and if i had my own place, i could just have a day care in my home. it'd be the best. i wouldn't have to leave and i could take as many kids as i wanted. i gotta figure out how to make that a reality. cuz the more i think bout it the more i want it to happen. so here goes nothin. i really hope it'll happen. ttfn ~Lisa

Latest Poem 9-20-07 I can't explain it but I know its true now all I can do is think about you. I never thought you and I'd end up being more than friends. The more we hang out the more I don't want the time to end. You make me laugh and smile and when I'm with you I forget about life for a while. Being with you is so much fun, I feel like my life has just begun. I want to see you more and more and just can't wait to see what the future has in store. So here I go falling for you, I hope and pray you're falling for me too.