Well its been two weeks since we were told that my dad was gonna Die of cancer and things have changed a bit...his blood platlet level is deathly low and blood transfusions arent doing anything to help his body produce his own blood platlets so they have decided not to give him anymore blood transfusions...and without them u cant live too long so now its just a matter of time...its hard because a couple days ago we thought my dad had the chance to go home and now he will never leave the hospital alive...this has been the hardest and its only getting harder...I go and spend as much time with my dad as I can and we have fun we laugh we talk we hang out its the best...I wanna Remember his last days with me as happy days not sad...I will not cry in front of him i will only be happy to be able to have this time with him every single second counts and i wanna make it the best...So when im with him I cherish it and save the crying and sadness for when im at home not with him....my dad has lead a great and meaningfull life he has raised 5 kids and done a great Job....My 19 year okd brother told me today that he has never wanted to be like anyone more then he has wanted to be like my dad and he is exactly that...my dad has a great influence on us and a very positive one he will be sadly missed but for now He is in my heart and my prayers go out to him everyday...I love my dad so much...and i will miss him more then anything...the docs think a matter of days now...i cant believe that because my dad is a fighter but at the same time i am hoping for the best but preparing for the worst.
