Im wondering if it is at all possible. For once I would love to meet a guy who makes me his everything instead of putting stupid shit before me. Every relationship I have had I have made my guy number 1, he's my king and yet I always end up getting the shitty end of the relationship.
Sometimes I dont understand what I do wrong. I mean what do I do that sends them to go cheat? What do I do that pisses them off?? The major problem is no communication....
I love to talk about anything and everything with my guy...To me doing that is strengthening your bond. I also think a good argument is healthy. Im mexican and when i argue, I argue lol. Maybe thats an issue that can cause problems in a relationship....
I wanna find that guy that has my fire and passion...who will want to argue and scream at one another until our feelings are put on the table and then have the most incredible, hottest makeup sex....thats what its about right?
I want laughter, random hugs and kisses, someone to share runs in the rain with, someone to watch a yankee game with me, to go to a bar and have a few beers, but mainly someone who can break down the wal that is surrounding my heart. This guy is gonna take the time to find out who I really am and what Im about. He wnats to be my rock and let me cry on his shoulder when im sad, will listen to my problems and then try and help me find a solution....
Sometimes I feel like this is asking to much. Im tired of being that girl that you can come to for ur one night of fun and then call me every other week or so for some action. Im tired of that shit...its lonely...I want someone in my bed at night, holding me and whispering in my ear, and giving me kisses.......
I want that connection.....I just dont know if I will ever find it...its beginning to be a lonely world.......
