Ok so me and nik have known eachother for almost 2 years now and there is major chemistry between us but we have always put our friendship first. He's an awesome guy that you cant help but love...No I dont love him but I do care for him alot.
He makes me feel good about myself and he respects me as a person not just someone he can fuck and be done with. He makes me laugh, he listens to what I have to say and he's my shoulder when I need to cry. We started to drift towards the romantic side but it wasnt the right time for us. I was an emotional wreck with certain things going on in my life as was he and we both knew that it wasnt fair to either one of us to be in a relationship together. So we both decided a friendship was better than nothing.
Now I will admit I did cry when he first told me he only wanted to be my friend but after i cried I did realize he was completly right about us and it not being the right time to be together. In all honesty I respected him more as a man for being honest with me.
Now the thing is....is that we are heading towards that romantic level again...we have been talking about actually trying it out and becoming a couple, he tells me often that he wants to be with me as I also tell him I want to be with him. But yes I can admit that there is a part of me that keeps holding back but I do find myself slipping.
I have shared hugs and kisses with him and I would love to share many more with him. Yes I can admit that I am scared but who isn't scared when they go into a new relationship??? But I am confident that me and him will work out good together....
I know there are others that are not confident about me and him, and thats fine. That is their problem. If me and him dont work out the way that I want at least I can be confident in knowing that me and him will be friends because thats how good our friendship is now.
I think it is a good sign for me to say that if I cant be with him as his girlfriend then at least I Know he will always be in my life as a friend....and to me that is better than not having him in my life at all........
