Ok I am not having a really good day today my exbf and his gf broke up the other day which was good because we have been sleeping together and I love him so it is really hard to say no to him but tonight he is at another girls house he has this thing where he can't be single and "supposedly" he wants a seriouse relaitionship but I am sitting here right in front of him I try to make him happy and there is so much stuff that he does that makes me feel like he does love me but he seems like he dosn't care sometimes like tonight it hurts cause I feel like he is out sleeping with someone else but I dont' know for sure and I can't say anything even if he is and normally we act like we are going out he kisses me hugs me he fucking sings to me and I love it when he does cause it makes me feel so special to him and he says he cares about me but I don't know anymore I asked him for a kiss at his moms work and he wouldn't give me one and it just makes me feel like he won't be affectionate in public because of the fact that he is ashamed of me or something and he is always sleeping with other girls or going out with them granted he is younger then me but still if you love someone show them instead of just caring about getting your dick wet. And it is hard because I am always forgiving him and I love him so much but I don't know anymore I feel like sometimes I need to just get him out of my life cause he dosn't care about me so why should I care about him. But you know what it is hard cause my head says to get him out of my life but my heart says that I love him so much and I love the way he is sometimes. But I will ttyl.
