XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

do i not..

do not deserve to be happy ..

do i not deserve a chance to truly be myself to live my lifee the way i choose

 father your cold words the other day broke my heart .. 

i have done everything i could as your daughter so far way .. loved you more then most ..

and even at your most difficut times..

father i will not cower ..

 im not afriad  and i never choose to be ..

 father you .. hurt so u hurt me ..

 sure you say your selfish .. this i can agree with  .. let me live my life ..

  im a woman now .. not your child anymore ..

  i must do what i need to .. 

love me or hate me for my decisions yet are are my own ..

I know you and know how you try to make me feel guilty for things im not guilty of ..

father i'll always love you ..but i will make my own decisions ..

 funny how , the two men who were in my life used guilt to make me do things , and even from distance try to do the same

 try to find a way to control me .. but im a fire .. a fire which burns so bright.. you can't extingusih its flame .. you can't take away my passion or who i am .. if i change its becuase i choose to .. im not not your puppet .. you can't pull my strings .. you an't take your love from me anymore i locked i my heart and threw away the key ..

 i don't listen to your cruel words ..

i don't need them do what u intended to .. to make me come running and fasll at your feet .. no father the time has past ..  yet my fire , my passion ,i dot not choose to hurt u . yet you may be hurt of your own accord .. your hands may burn if they come to close to the fire .. .. becareful  fatther i'm my own person i can stand on my own ..you will ot put out this flame .. not you or anyone elseelse who tries to ..