So yeah.. related to my last post.. I have been feeling rather disconnected the last few days. On the outside looking in, longing but not knowing how to reach out for it.
You know.. How do you approach a submissive you are interested in? well it doesn't matter anyways, cause I cant do it like 90% of the Dominant people out there.. thats not me.
I'm Old Guard, but also soft and sweet.. i smile a lot and laugh.. I refused to form an image that was contrary to who i am.. and I am kind.. thats all there is to it, I'm kind.. even if I'm fucking twisted and evil.. -grins-
so when I was always approached it was either I let them know i was willing, by kneeling at their feet.. or they said 'your mine.' and I said ok.. but the world feels more complicated now.. its no longer 'PC' to go up to some one you like.. and who seems genuinely interested in you.. and say 'your mine.' then your considered one of those foolish newbies who thinks every submissive in their general location, is theirs. I certainly don't.
Now the claiming of a sub, is a very private afair.. even the letting know the interest.. I've got about 6 interests right now.. though none of them are what I'm really looking for (See post one) and I think they know it.... if not they need to re-read it and read between the lines.. only so much can be publicly said.. though if they don't have the capacity to reason it out, thats fine.. they can ask me and i will tell them.. with a disclaimer..
not being a genius doesn't make you less emotionally/mentally attractive..
Ok, WTF.. twice i tried to write about this, and twice the topic just shifted to something else entirely.. rambling on segue and non-sequiter..
so where was i going? I am feeling emotionally disconnected from everyone.. everything.. and also feeling frustrated from social friction due to this.. I don't like feeling this way.. but i dont know how to 'reconnect'.
perhaps thats what i need to do.. emotionally connect with some one..
ah well... back to my thoughts all alone in my giant universe within my tiny skull.
