JUST ME MELANIE's blog: "Disability...Yep!"

My disability places the Winter months at the top of my list of things that trigger my depression.

With the added pressure of the holidays and my inability to provide a nice one for my kids and grandkids,being shut inside without sunshine for days at at time,and being alone again as a new year begins,i have a tendancy to get deeply depressed.

there will be days i will not be my friendly self (lol) and days i will,(even more than usual)

So even as i plan to fight it,please understand if, some days,i do not win.i will begin a new anti-depressant in preparation for the coming months.Know that i enjoy the interaction here with all of you and sometimes even crave it as a desperate attempt to stave off the loneliness.If i am bothering u,just tell me...i will not be offended

I love you all,and enjoy your company....

Just Melanie again...lol

First i must admit,i should not have even mentioned my disability but, anyone that knows me at all knows my mouth sometimes goes on without me....lol.

So for those that have wondered...my disability is Chronic Depression.I have lived with this my whole life is why i said it did not matter.it just "is" for me.

Waking up every day,i must convince myself,today is a wonderful day...some days i do well and others i just can't...bear with me please.Alot of things hurt my feelings easily and others just make me work harder at believing....

Life has been dfficult but i am a survivor and always will be.I love people and genuinely care for all i cross paths with.This gift helps keep me from drawing inside myself and never coming out.

My heart is much bigger than my disability (Thank You God)

Love You All...Melanie