Christopher C Miller's blog: "Depressed Christopher"

Some say I'm too needy, but a man dying of thirst may be too needy for the glass of water that could save his life doesn't mean he still doesn't need the water. I tried being cool, I tried be desperate, I tried be suave but nothing works. So what's wrong with me? Is it... 1) My face (am I ugly) 2) Too desperate 3) Too fate 4) Something else. Please, I've never had a girlfriend, steady or otherwise. I feel that I'm missing something.

Okay, I am beginning to feel better about myself. But if it's not me that's the problem. If I'm not some kind of hideous pig nosed freak like I use to believe then why can't I find love? Can someone answer me that? Why can't I find a woman? I have racked my brain searching for the answer. I am clean, I'm not an asshole, I'm charming. I do get nervous and stutter, could that be it? No, that can't be it. All the women here can't stand me either and I never stutter when I write. So, what's wrong with me? Help me?

All my life love has brought me nothing but heart ache and depression and thanks to KIRA, the girl from Japan who I thought I was starting to reach dumped me I never even had a change to meet her. She used to rate some girl's pic and dumped me like a hot potato. I feel so sad and depressed. I'm locking my heart up and throwing away the key, love is just another four letter word to me with no meaning. Since love gives up on me, then I give up on love. If I'm wrong or jumping to the wrong conclusion, please tell me.