its day three from my surgrey and im feeling better im glad that its over...finally can smoke again and eat almost normally...im feeling alone and very weird...im coughin up this brown crap...my doctoer/dentist said that its the blood that i swallowed...*yuck* im getting irratated of being in my house...but everytime i go outside it rains...and i feel like me and my ...bf...are fallin apart...but i guess its ok..it kinda hurts but if it has to be i guess ill let it...cause i just want him to be happy...ill be happy when hes happy...i miss him alot...i hope he misses me to