man im feeling...confused and emotional...im back on my birthcontrol pills and my hormones are goin bererk i mean im horny then sad then happy then i feel like cryin but i dont then im excited and hyper then im depressed...its drivin me crazy i feel like im cracked out....o.0..
my friend amanda told me last night that shes havin the same problem but her husband is in iraq..that even worse...the worse thing to happen to me would be to not take care of it...but i did...(by myself)..yeah..oh yeah my ex jay wants to get back together and he told me yesterday that he wants to get married to me and he wants me to have his babys and we can live in northshore and ride horses everyday...yeah right like i wanna be together with a fricken coke head for the rest of my life...yeah he says he's changed but i dont think so hes lied to me to many times and im over it...i would be happier if he just promised to not do it behind my back and didnt do it..instead of doin it..then we would have been so happy right now...but no hes stupid lost his chance...im happy right now ne ways.
