Ok, so I am wondering....does anyone actually read this stuff? What drives a person to attempt to try and find romance online? Is that suppose to be better than the ordinary methods? Don't get me wrong. I know why I am here, but I am really curious of the circumstances of everyone else! I like the experience simply for the fact that you talk and get to know someone as a person without the initial judgements. I have had nothing but great experiences with everyone that I have met online. Are they all what I had hoped for, looks wise? Negative, but I have dated some really good looking men in my life who have turned out to be total jerks, so I try to base everything on the way that a person makes me feel! Notice, I said try! I think no matter what, there has to be some sort of initial attraction to begin with and then you build on that! Obviously, I haven't found my soul mate on here, or I would be lying in the bed next to him instead of typing this stupid ass blog! Does it ever actually work, though? I mean, do people meet on here and end up finding the man or woman of their dreams? Does such a person really even exist? Or do we have such high expectations, that we never find that person? I am not feeling very optimistic in the whole Love thing, right now, and I sure could use some encouraging thoughts! I think sometimes, things happen in previous relationships, that get in the way of us being able to ever truly give ourselves to someone else, or allow are hearts to be completely given to anyone, ever again! I think perhaps, that is the state that I am in! I want to meet that special someone, and I want to fall in love, and share my life with them, but I am 38 yrs old. I am starting to think that it is nothing but a dream. That it is never going to happen! That scares me somewhat. Hey, I'm okay being alone, and I don't need a man to complete me. I have a great dog, and he is very obedient and great company, but damn it....I want a man in my life! I want a reason to come home in the evenings. Right now, I feel like I am just going through the motions of life. Just existing would be a better definition! Is this really as good as it gets???? I mean, what happens to those of us, that never find that person to share our lives with. We just work, pay the bills, do the chores around the house, eat soup, because you have noone to cook for, sleep alone and die????? OMG...I hope not!
