Nascar BitchBUY ME A DRINK Im dying here's blog: "In Loving Memory"

It has not been an easy decision, and one I have not taken lightly, but I have decided to continue pulling for Jr. I love that guy. I am very disappointed at his decision, but I remember feeling the same way about Mark when he decided to leave that #6 car and the team. But now I wish he had done it years ago!!! I in no way, shape or form will ever pull for Jeff Gordon, so don't push it. My dislikes for him go way beyond what goes on each week at the track. I can only hope that Jr gets in there and dominates the Hendricks race team! You know Mark will always come first with me, and Tony and Jr have always been my 2 and 3, and it is going to remain that way as long as he doesn't get with that team and start acting like them!!!! So now everyone knows where I stand!!!!!! Go JR!!!

Ok, so I am wondering....does anyone actually read this stuff? What drives a person to attempt to try and find romance online? Is that suppose to be better than the ordinary methods? Don't get me wrong. I know why I am here, but I am really curious of the circumstances of everyone else! I like the experience simply for the fact that you talk and get to know someone as a person without the initial judgements. I have had nothing but great experiences with everyone that I have met online. Are they all what I had hoped for, looks wise? Negative, but I have dated some really good looking men in my life who have turned out to be total jerks, so I try to base everything on the way that a person makes me feel! Notice, I said try! I think no matter what, there has to be some sort of initial attraction to begin with and then you build on that! Obviously, I haven't found my soul mate on here, or I would be lying in the bed next to him instead of typing this stupid ass blog! Does it ever actually work, though? I mean, do people meet on here and end up finding the man or woman of their dreams? Does such a person really even exist? Or do we have such high expectations, that we never find that person? I am not feeling very optimistic in the whole Love thing, right now, and I sure could use some encouraging thoughts! I think sometimes, things happen in previous relationships, that get in the way of us being able to ever truly give ourselves to someone else, or allow are hearts to be completely given to anyone, ever again! I think perhaps, that is the state that I am in! I want to meet that special someone, and I want to fall in love, and share my life with them, but I am 38 yrs old. I am starting to think that it is nothing but a dream. That it is never going to happen! That scares me somewhat. Hey, I'm okay being alone, and I don't need a man to complete me. I have a great dog, and he is very obedient and great company, but damn it....I want a man in my life! I want a reason to come home in the evenings. Right now, I feel like I am just going through the motions of life. Just existing would be a better definition! Is this really as good as it gets???? I mean, what happens to those of us, that never find that person to share our lives with. We just work, pay the bills, do the chores around the house, eat soup, because you have noone to cook for, sleep alone and die????? OMG...I hope not!

Alan Shaw's obituary Current mood: sad Category: Life ..> ..> Staff Sgt. Alan Shaw Visitation: Monday, February 19, 2007 5:00 PM until 7:00 PM North Little Rock Funeral Home & Cremation Service 1921 N. Main St. North Little Rock, AR 72114 Service: Tuesday, February 20, 2007 2:00 PM Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints 13901 Quail Run Drive Little Rock, AR 72210 VIEW/SEND CONDOLENCES SSG. Alan Wayne Shaw was born Nov. 10, 1975, in Little Rock, AR to Jarrell and Noramae Shaw and was the third of seven children. He and is family are members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. He was a 1994 graduate of Wilbur D. Mills High School in Little Rock, AR . Alan then attended Arkansas Tech University before joining the U.S. Marine Corp in 1998. While assigned to 1st BN 5th Marines in Camp Pendleton, CA., Alan served two overseas tours and one sea service tour. He was honorably discharged from the Marine Corps in 2002 and proceeded to attended University of Arkansas at Little Rock. Alan and Sharrell were married on Oct. 23, 2003 and in October of 2004 he decided once again to serve his country by joining the US Army. Six weeks later he was serving his first combat tour in Baghdad, Iraq. Alan was reunited with his family in March 2005. He left for his second tour in support of OIF II Oct. 4, 2006 and selflessly gave his life for his country on February 9, 2007 during combat operations in Baquabah, Iraq. Alan exhibited great pride in his military career and was an outstanding leader and friend to his fellow soldiers. He was always among the first to volunteer, as he believed wholeheartedly in his mission as a part of Operation Iraqi Freedom. Alan died a hero to an entire nation as well as to his family and friends. Anyone who knew Alan will remember his passion for life and his ability to create an environment of happiness for those around him. He was adamant about his beliefs and his plan for the future. Those who were fortunate enough to know him will never forget him and all who loved him will live forever with him in their hearts. He was a loving son, brother, husband, friend and, most of all, daddy. The legacy he has left behind will continue to enrich the lives and loves of all. Alan is survived by his wife, Sharrell, and three children, Austin, Jourdan and Davyn; parents, Jarrell Bentley and Noramae Shaw; siblings, Larry and Lisa Shaw, Bud and Terri Bailey, Darren and MindyShaw, Randy and Angie Shaw, Amber Shaw, and Jeffrey Shaw, all of Little Rock; father and mother-in-law, Gary and Melanie Holland; brother-in-law, Jake Holland; sister-in-law, Cara Holland, all of North Little Rock; mother and father-in-law, Lisa and Russell Soto; sister-in-law, Lauren Castle, all of Blue Eye, Mo.; nine adoring nieces and nephews; and abundance of friends. Memorial services for Army Staff Sgt. Alan W. Shaw, 31, of Little Rock, AR., assigned to the 1st Battalion, 12th Cavalry Regiment, 3rd Brigade Combat Team, 1st Cavalry Division, Fort Hood, Texas, will be held at 2 p.m. Feb. 20, 2007, at The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, in Little Rock, AR., with Bishop Donald Nance officiating. Burial will be held at 10 a.m. Feb. 22, at Arlington National Cemetery, in Arlington, Va., with full military honors. Visitation will be held from 5 to 7 p.m. Feb. 19, at North Little Rock Funeral Home, 1921 Main, North Little Rock, AR, 758-1170. Memorial contributions to help the Shaw family expenses to Arlington National Cemetery may be made to Staff Sgt. Alan Shaw Memorial Fund @ Metropolitan National Bank, in Little Rock, AR. Online obituary and guest register at www.northlittlerockfuneralhome.com. ..>..> ..> ..> ..> ..> ..> ..> ..> Army Staff Sgt. Alan W. Shaw 31, of Little Rock, Ark.; assigned to the 1st Battalion, 12th Cavalry Regiment, 3rd Brigade Combat Team, 1st Cavalry Division, Fort Hood, Texas; died Feb. 9 in Baqubah, Iraq, of wounds suffered from an explosion during breaching operations. Also killed were Staff Sgt. Eric Ross and Spc. Leeroy A. Camacho. ..> ..> Died: February 09, 2007 ..> ..> ..> ..> ..>