BOOTYFULL JENNY BABY9's blog: "bull shit on fubar"

little one with 8 tiny legs why do u scare me so u crawling while i sleep watch me with ur eyes and think weather to bite or so little one who spins his web in a furry to catch a bite why do u scare me so ur not very friendly u make me all squwermy and hurt in the spot u bite little one who represnts fear why are you so mean and crule why is it the world cant exsits with out you but i can exsist with out you there are some things that i just dont understand right now. why is it that when someone is interested in someone, it seems like that person dosnt feel the same way back or someone else is tryin to butt in and make things harder for u to think? i have heard so many complaints about this situation and its just weird. i never thought that i would acctuly see it but i finlly have and its not pretty. but when someone is single its like the world dosnt give 2 shits about u and u can merryily go about ur depressed little life as normal.. now that is just wrong i think.. that happend to me a few years back. was dating an awesome guy for a little while and his "friends" who just happened to be chicks were trying to get with him because he was with me.. he frekin asked me if it would be cool to stop dating so he could go and screw off his "friend" but then come back.. oh hell no. its either me or her.. no stoping and then picking back up inthe middle.. well i dumped him and he thought that all of these girls would be right at his beconking call.. well he aint got shit.. so why is that? OH and something else i DONT understand is.. WHEN UR MARRIED WHY THE FUCK DO U DUCK AROUND BEHIND UR SPOUSE?? so u fall in love with a girl, that girl isnt sure which road to go, then u go and marry someone else and are very unhappy, andback then knew you would be unhappy and then that girl from before ur marrige omes into play and u think its ok to toy with thiere emotions behind ur spouses back... how is that not a sin. and yet u think it is ok for u to do because ur a man and the woman is less than u.. i mean comeon now.. AND THEN ( the polot thickens) ur still married ur inlove with someone other than ur spouse and refuse to let them go but stilll want ur little dimond in the roguh without no one knowing about wut is going on. in a small town, nothing is personal . i dunno... and then there is the funny one.. why the fuck would u go and cheat and lie to someone u say u love? with an ex??an ex who has beef with the person ur " inlove" with um wut grounds dose that fall in... all i can think of is the fact that dawg ur a fuckin loser.. and wut makes it even more funny is that fact that even after month of being broken up u still say u miss them or love them and that u want them.. but still ya cant keep ur legs closed long enough to actuly mean it... in my perfect world i think that if i found that special someone and i cared for them and knew they cared for me just as much i wouldnt think twise about other people, i would remain true and honest and faithful. and if i was married.. well hell i would just keep the single people away unless i was around other people just to be sure that nothing would happen.. and i know that that is sayhing that i cant trust myself but that isnt why i would do that, its the simple fact that chicks are cunt bags and if they want to give gossip im sure they would start from the relationship saying so and so cheated on u and if u have an alliby then ur awesome. but i dont foresee the day that i will ever be married if by for some miricle chance i get another chance then i would but who knows. i messed up the first chance i had when i was in a second car accident and some how the subject was brought up today at work and it sucks that i didnt make it to florida. other wise i wouldnt be sitting here right now blogging about unhappyiness in people.. may 17th 2008 was the date i was to be jeniffer brown... and then i hear that he goes and turns gay again... *sigh* i wonder from time to time wutit woulda been like not being in ny no more, being closer to my best friend, and being able to see mickey mouse all of the time? who knows.. prolly a dream come true. id prolly be pregnant again like planned but oh well i got wut i got and i was lucky enough to get robbie as it was. so wut i guess im getting at is that for all of u in this boat it sucks ass and i know how yas feel and if anyone needs a shoulder to cry on, go ahead and use mine.

if i looked like them would u want me if i acted the part would u cheer for me if i wasnt as smart would u love me if i wasnt who i was would you want me more i could never look like them i could never act like that i could never lose my head i could never be someone else so how dose someone win ur heart how dose someone impress u how dose someone take ur breath away how someone get to be ur love? all i can offer is me all i can give u is my heart all i can show u is my world all i can love is with my whole heart ill be ur ear when u need one ill be ur sholder when u need to cry ill be the hand to help u up ill be the friend is always there ill never put u down ill never judge u ill never let u down and ill never make u cry i wish i could be ur star i wish i could be ur love i wish i could be ur girl i wish i could be ur world im not perfect and im not the prettiest, im not skinny and im not rich but just like the rest of us we all search for love and hope that someday love will someday find us. we pray it comes before we die and we know wut it is, we hope it lasts forever, we urn for the feelings of being in love. so why is it that it is so hard to find that place in the world, in the arms of someone who truly shares the same feelings that u do for them? .. so just like the rest, ill sit back and watch the clouds go by and dream a little dream wondering if love passed me by yet or not. (p.s) im in a great mood right now, just a little creative and in thought but willing to share my creativiness with the world in hopes to catch someones eye and spark up a convo on good poetry or same thoughts and views and figure things out that bother the world...

very depressed id rather be crying tears of joy instead of tears of pain my heart has been hurt again by false love that i i try to obtain why do i fall for the traps that make my heart feel so sick they make me feel like im wanted when in reality in just there to suck at shit all i want is love why is that so hard to find someone who cares the same as i do who not one to judge and be shy my heart is crying so hard now because i let u in just for u to walk out of the door and u to call me your friend there is nothing wrong with being friends i have so many that i cant count on my hands but someday id like one of them to be not just my friend but my man so when i go camping over the weekend i prolly wont call ill be locked away in my tent with tears that there will be enough to fall off the falls i dont like being alone anymore but i guess i was right from the start im bound to be alone forever and be the fool who falls apart for those who are wondering... i fell for someone, he is my friend.. and now my heart hurts because its breaking and im falling all apart.... i dont eat no more, i dont sleep any more all i do is when im alone is cry. when will it be my time for the sun to shine?? i keep thinking i see it but then a big rain cloud comes and the sun belongs to someone else... everyone seems so happy with a specail person like that.... im a single mom, raising a son who has no father, life is hard enough as it is with him talking and using the word daddy, it hurts because the one who made him i thought was gonna be there but isnt and never will be and i cry now about that too. this summer sucks ass. how do u tell ur almost 3 year old that mommy is ur daddy? and what do i say when down the road if he gets mad at me for not finding a daddy? or his? i think that if i stop dreaming about a life out there that will never be touched and be more realistic that maybe i can make a footprint in life.. but how can a dreamer not dream? i try not too sleep so i dont cry and i still cry .... i think that after the first accident i wish my friend didnt get help right away and just left me there for a few more mins and i wouldnt be here today. robbie has a good life if he is with his grandma.. its not like he needs me at all... i just wonder how it would be if i really didnt make it.. i wish i didnt neither wouldnt have to worry about finding true love, loosing friends, having a broken heart, watch my son grow not knowing his father, not having to try to impress my family to be somebody instead of a nobody,... what am i good for.. i cant drive. i work , and i make people pissed of at me for doing things wrong, or in just general ... talking. i would love to give up on life right now i really would. i wouldnt care if anyone was sad if i was gone,

now someone has been trying to call me a so called "wench" because people that are on my friends list who i dont even know or ever have talked to have been viewing thiere page, so NOW im getting shit for it.. now i cant help other peoples actions, i have almost just about everyone in central new york as a friend on my list because of stuff i do on here promoting a lounge... now if a new member comes on i add them and then if they are unactive and then become active again and then also try finding friend which is from what i gather, how dose that give someone grounds for pointing the finger at me.. never met the person talked to or what have ya, go ahead and block me its not worth my time *** here are a few examples of some things that were sent to me via messege and comment: Mr_Hott... member is Online I will not even bother to rate you. I will explain something to you though... There is no need for you to be a "wench", do not forget that your B/F was messing around on you too. Get it... ? As a courtesy to you.. I am informing you of being blocked. There is a record of this and if you or ANY of you friends (online or real life) bother me, it will and can be used as a reason for litigation. Understand this, this is only a fair warning *ok i want to point out a few things wrong here.. one.. who is this B/F they talk of??? the last time i checked i was single, yea i like someone but that dosnt mean that they are my b/f.. but hey that is pretty cool tho!.... **next... they were messing around on me.. wow alot has been accomplished in such a short period of time.. just goes to show how pathetic some people can be in not knowing all of the facts. boy i tell ya... sheesh u people need to grow up!