BOOTYFULL JENNY BABY9's blog: "my rules for dating"

so a friend of mine has tried to tell me that in order to be part of the crowd of people whoo look to be so inlove and shit that u have to present urself to the world by offering urself to them... i however dont think that is propper. it just gives u a title as a slut, a liar, a possible cheat and how the hell do u know wut people have hiding up thiere places? ew. so here i dont understand still how all these ugly girls with bad manners can walk around with great guys at thiere side, and here i am prolly the best person in the world to know, a little better looking than them, who has a job and knows where she stands and here i am... with nothing, but envy so since there is no explination to law of attraction i give up!!!! so if anyone reads this and they are conicdering.. forget about it... im only about friends now if i have to chose to between being a slut or being perfectly me and out of trobule or any of that crazy stuff then im going with #2 id rather be dead than be a slut or open my legs for some guy. if there are miricles and someday someone finds and interest in me , i just might stop and think about giving it a go but for now im done searching :-)

i wish i was more patient then i wouldnt have to wory about my mind its driving me crazy im crazy for a guy and he knows who he is and i really need to stop wondering i need to start taking my own advise take things slow and not rush but i think its the fact that im excited about him so much that i just want him so bad and it makes me envy his friends. so what do i do? i tell my friends to see where things go.. and here i am... wanting more but at the same time he is doing wut i would be doing or telling a friend.. weird or what. i love the fact that we got the friendship thing and that is the best saftynet possible. im really hoping of getting back behind the wheel so i can see him more offten that way it is equal.... here is some advise to myself that i tell my friends.. patients is a virtue jen and the race is long and slow but be strong and keep moving ahead, dont look back or give up. the in u give up u will find that u were so much more closer than u thought...... i think i just want more because im jelous of happy couples walking hand in hand and i walk with no one in my hand. i miss the romance, i mis he flowers. i miss the wispers. i miss the kissing. i miss the making out. i miss sex, i miss the inspiration for me to write poetry, i miss feeling whole, i miss the glances and smiling at eachother, i miss being in a relatiosnhip caring about someone..... those who have loved me and lost have told me or a friend of mine that im one in a million. im the dimond in the rough and such a great catch. im working so hard to better myself. i have my anger issues controled and laid to rest. i have my life in order and pretty much set for the long haul. i am just missing a real companion, lover, friend.

kinda having a sucky ass day, i really dont want tobe alone anymore, but at the same time im enjoying the freedom, i have friends downstairs that fight all of the time and then make up just to keep the spark alive and i been fight free for 3 years now. i come home to robbie and go to bed alone. when i do get company at night i wake up alone... it makes someone like me feel bad. yes i like someone ( yet again) but no im not wearing my heart upon my sleeve or am i getting my hopes up into the clouds, it feels nice to be giggly and flirting and feeling like someone might like me back, i wont lie or hold back what i feel.. hell that is what blogs are for right. so but ya know if something comes up and either one of us finds something we dont like and leave it at a friends level, i wont go physco crazy and be a stalker.. that aint me, ill just be sad for a day then move on... ya see that is what i think is wrong in this world, people are holding thiere actions in the past for way too long and it keeps them from finding happiness and so they get depressed and bitchy and i think they need to let go and move on... ill be sad this weekend only because of the fact that im alone, but "trying" to do something about it, but ill be camping and being the romantic person that i am sitting beside a fire wrapped in a blanket alone is just a cause for tears... and it will prolly bring back some old memories that need to be replaced with new ones. but advise for myself is to hold my head high and just keep thinking that my someone is out there somewhere, i just wish he where here now *sigh*

well im hoping that my search is over, that i found the one. so far everything seems to be what i am looking for, and heading in the right direction. i am willing to take all chances now and go for the gold if i come up with bronze ill be happy either way knowing i met one hell of an incredible guy :-) so right now my mind is else wheres and have put the search on hold, not sure for how long.
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OK as u all are probably wondering wut the titles means. well now that i am officaly ready to date i have figured out some guild lines i will have to follow and whomever it is that is interested in me or im interested in must follow... as goes 1. dont kiss me unless u mean buisness.. not sex... that u like me or want me 2. dont ask me to be your "girlfriend" unless u really care or even love me.. because if i say it back... i really mean it and dishonesty is just not healthy, and i am not a liar. 3.if u just want to be friends, then dont try to act like u want something more... i can get confussed very easily, and that is how hearts get broken 4. u might think that i am not interested at first because u dont know me and u should get to know me before getting ur hopes up so high.. i no longer wear my heat upon my sleeve so dont try to break something that you dont hold yet things i like just as a starter.... a. i like to hold halds and go for walks together.. i cant help it if im a hopeful romantic b. u wanna make me blush or feel like i mean something to you... roses, flowers, small tokens, look into my eyes like u can see me in u.... ill melt like ice cream in july c. love unexpected kisses d. dinner and a movie and a walk thru town or whathave ya..... very lovely evening *** Update *** -im a single mother and my son comes with me mostly everywheres so if u cant handle that fact then.... i guess ur *sol* but being a mother dosnt mean that im ur mother so act ur age and not like a kid, its a hard enough job looking after a 2 1/2 year old. - respect is a big deal to me. with no respect, u aint gonna get none in return - trust... GOLDEN RULE ... no trust= no love in my eyes, if there is doubt, suspission, regret, dishonesty of any kind shape or form, my trust will be broken. and if for some reason ur caught red handed cheating, liying, im gonna have to let u go, i used to believe in second chances but someone tried to show me that its not that bad and ruined it. I am looking for love, kindness, support, friendship, a companion, over all someone to be my male best friend whom ill love and adore untill the end of time. get to know me and im the best person u could ever meet. i dont get mad easy, stern yes but only because im trying to teach my son. everyone has bad days and feels miserable.. i have my fair share so dont take offence to it. "romeo, romeo... where for art thou romeo?"

a clear nights sky, full moon, warm breeze, sitting on the ledge of the shore as the waves crash upon the rocks, cuddeled in a blanket watching for shooting stars with someone very special, a soft kiss and someone telling me how much they love how i am and how much i mean to them and how they would never want to let me go, no matter what.