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she can hear the rain softly beating against the window as she sits on her davenport tears streaming down her cheeks...... her heart so shreaded into pieces that she can barly breath ......her hands trembling as she trys to wipe the tears away .......she can not move for it hurts her so much...... her life gone with just a few words spoken to her..... she wishes to just terminate everything..... she thinks to herself why..... why does it always end up like this?.her mind propelling with so many thoughts that she cant keep up with them she loves him ....he is her soul mate ........her heart and beloved........she waited so long for the chance to be with her sweet lover but her life is in such pandemonium that her hands are bound .......she closes her eyes but she cant stop the tears .......she trys to let out a scream but nothing comes out she lost .......shes lost her heart and soul forever .......her dreams up in flames .......her soul destined to burn in the fiery pits of hell spending the remainder of life in Cimmerian shade......never to see brightness .......never wanting to be in the happiness of sunny days ...... for he was her light..... the light that led her from the darkness .......the light that set her free ......made her want to live .....made her feel so alive .....but deep inside she knew it was just too good to be true........ she let her heart go in hopes of of a chance that she could be happy.....but as fate has willed it once again her heart was destroyed..... she lets out an ear piercing shriek for she knows where her place truley is....... far away deep inside the darkness the only place she has ever called home .....tears still streaming down her face she turns around and stares into the blackend hole and begins to walk towards it..... dreading the remainder of life..... knowing all she can do is sit in the darkened corners and watch her heart day after day live his life as he moves on..... finds new love..... and begins the family that should have been with her...........
As the rain descended from above it felt cool against her cheeks Her heart ripped from within once again She sat there alone heart broken and in tears as she thought about what he had done to her....She trusted him with her everything. She thought he was sincere but all along he planned and plotted how to use and abuse her and make her feel like a fool once again. All her life never once has she experienced pure happiness. Always being abused always taking the fall always silent never showing her pain.......Her silent pain......No one hearing her scream ......Her silent screams......No one sees her bleed ....Cutting her flesh to feel alive...... Yet she desperately grasps at the gravel trying to climb out of her rapidly filling grave... She sits all alone shattered and in pieces in the rain .Wondering how could she have been so wrong. Thinking of ways to make him hurt ...To make him feel the agony she feels. Longing to see him suffer with each piece of herself she tries to pick up. She wants him to feel pain......Wants to chain him up and whip him till his bloody intestines are falling out and his heart is on its last few beats ........Wanting to claw at his eyes and hear him beg for her to leave him his sight .......... To triturate his skull and feel the warm blood cover her hands..... Pulverize his bones and hear him scream in agony .....Let her hear his distress ........Let him feel this fucking pain .....Her fucking pain within ......Reality sets in as the rain starts to slow down ......She sits there soaked in the rain .....Her tears hidden once again ...... Her heart broken.... Her soul bleeding ...Alone and crawling back to her darkness .......Her secluded darkness where she can sit and collect her shattered remains ........ "
