WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU CAN NO LONGER TRUST THE ONE YOU LOVE. WHEN HE HAS LIED AND BETRAYED YOU. THEN ASKS WHAT ARE YOU JEALOUS? WHY MEN GOTTA LIE, WHY THEY GOTTA HIDE SHIT FROM THE ONES THEY CLAIM TO LOVE. TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME BUT YET DO THINGS BEHIND MY BACK AND THEN LIE TO MY FACE. I HATE THAT MORE THAN ANYTHING. I AM SO HURT. THE COMPUTER IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN I WILL EVER BE. I THOUGHT THAT WITH TIME HE WOULD CHANGE. I WAS WRONG. HES NEVER GONNA CHANGE NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR SAY. I DESERVE BETTER. I AM JUST AT MY WITS END WITH THIS. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA CRAWL IN A HOLE AND DISSAPPEAR. I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS OUT OF CONTROL. I JUST DONT KNOW ANYMORE. SORRY I HAD TO WRITE DOWN WHAT I AM FEELING. IT HELPS ME.
