Well I've done it now. I lost my temper put a fist though a wall and not only do I owe the hospital for the coast of repair..i'm banned from going in. Well they can ban me all they want too.I will be by my soulmates side and fuck them if they think they're the ones strong enough to stop me.
But for tonyte I let it go.I'm needed to watch the fair Bella. It's just her since Tman got invited to dinner,movies and a sleep over.And she's setting by the slideing doors watching the hell stones come down n going "ooooo biggggg boom"
The bigger thunder gets'grr u no boom me".
She's alittle warrior. And she IS in warrior mode tonyte. She senses something.When she for goes a "ookie" to watch outside she's senseing something.
I only hope it's nothing bad on her Ma & Da since they're out tonight doing a gig.
Yeah call me parinode. Call me a worrie wart. It's my family I will worrie. Not that I don't have more then enough worrie going on with out that...
But this storm reflects myself in many ways. I'm a rageing storm inside. Feelings whipping around over lapping..fear..worrie..anger..hope..love...
and above it all this overwhelming need to just be with my lady. She's in a coma...I still know she can feel me when i'm there. And away from her the fears grow 3 fold. I've only loved this deep once befor. Honestly I never thought I'd be able to do so again. That is untill I met Gypsy. I shit you not--from frist time I laid eyes on her I knew she was my forever. When Rave introed us & I herd her voice-- well I was lost.The most amazing thing is she feels that way about me. The thought that i could lose her...the pain is like a dagger to my heart. I feel the tears excapeing even as I battle not to shed them now. No need to try and hide my feelings from Bella she already knows I'm...lost.
She simply looked up at me n went "pipi u no happi(happy)- me no no happi. Gygy(Gypsy) no goos. Me love u. me love gygy." She a remarkable little girl. She is so in tune with how we all feel.
Yeah I love her asif she were my own.
And she's in a big way what's keeping me sane tonyte. Everytime that phone rings I fill with dread. Everytime it's not the hospital i'm hit with releif. Tonyte feels as if it will never end......
