Alone in the dark, adrift in the sea of emotions. Lost and confused, hurt again, time slows down, till every minute seems to drag on. Pulled from every direction, your held in a delicate balance of indecision. Any choice you make the wrong one for one reason or another. You can never make everyone happy. closing one door to open another. half tempted to say fuck it all, and just make a move, any move, consequences be damned, just to make the pain and stress go away. To be free and happy. I can still hear her voice lingering in my ear. the sound so sweet one minute, and as the conversation comes to a close, her voice drops to little more than a whisper; the sound alone enough to break your heart, so vulnerable and fragile. my heart in my throat as I think about her. Feelings of impotence flow through me, overwhelming me with my inability to do any of the things i want to do. Held in a prison of my own making. Seamingly thrown to the sidelines to watch your own life as it passes you by, unable to call the plays. Just another day in the life...
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