Well i just wanted to talk. I dont have anything special to say. BUT i need to ramble. Kinda like a diary.
Today has been the most depressing day i have faced in a long time, sad part is i dont know why. All day i have wanted to cry or hit something but not out of anger. Feels like the world is trying to fall in on me. I have been with family all day. looks like i could find something to smile about. I mean i have 3 perfect (some of the time anyways)kids a man who i love with all my heart a home and im alive so whats not to smile about? I am not sure. Its kinda like if i could just find a hole somewhere and curl up in it where no one could find me I would be so much better off.
Im not wanting to stop my life but I want it to hold on and wait for me.
I dont want it to end but I do want to feel like im part of it.
I dont want anything to happen to my family but I wish I could go 5 minutes without someone yelling for me to do something.
I wish I could have 5 minutes without someone I dont want to lose my home but I do with it could clean itself.
Am I crazy or does alot of people feel like this? Could someone please answer that for me would make things come into focus if someone would!