A Blast from the Past pt 3
I am caught
She sees me cheating this relationship
She’s seeing me give up
It’s written all over my face
I am not hiding it
In itself is a disgrace
I am better than that but I chose not to
Why would I do this to myself?
Why am I hurting myself?
She wants me to be free and I do to
But I don’t know how I am feeling
Could it be, can it be all so simple?
I don’t know
Sitting here in this pool of self pity
Wallowing in this muck of a mess I have caused
Feeling mighty shitty simply because
I chose to bow out before the relationship starts
Quitter, loser, no good for nothing.
I always finish what I start, so why am I doing this now?
Uh oh here goes the infighting
My heart and mind vs. my body and soul
The civil war begins where the last one left off
@joefresh
2/07
