Joe Fresh's blog: "WHAT TO DO"

Ok, so i tried to see you and be with you i was in love with the old you i was in love with that moment so many years ago, you were so sweet and kind, i thought... with age, it would mature even better, like a fine wine. but it didnt, you turned out to be rotten to the core. disregarding my feelings until i couldnt take it anymore i still think of our fond memories and time together i thought our love could stand the time of weather. but it didnt, i waited for you by the phone for you to call. you acted as if nothing happened at all no remorse ...no regret.. but i wouldnt give up just yet. i called day after the day the following week. to see if my interest you still peaked but its gone, that fleeting moment is at its end. now my heart will pretend to mend. i was doing so well without you . before you came back into my life now i am just a Man interrupted.

A Blast from the Past pt 4 What did R.Kelly Say? My mind is telling me know But my body is telling me yes Damn, damn, damn, what a mess A left here, a right there, a combination A flurry of what ifs A barrage of could bes My minds playin tricks on me My heart is strong also This fight is everlasting No true winner No clear loser Just an epic battle engulfed inside of me I am out cold on my feet Walking nonchalantly around My civil war has caused my feelings to become homeless To have no place to rest or rejuvenate @joefresh 2/07

A Blast from the Past pt 3 I am caught She sees me cheating this relationship She’s seeing me give up It’s written all over my face I am not hiding it In itself is a disgrace I am better than that but I chose not to Why would I do this to myself? Why am I hurting myself? She wants me to be free and I do to But I don’t know how I am feeling Could it be, can it be all so simple? I don’t know Sitting here in this pool of self pity Wallowing in this muck of a mess I have caused Feeling mighty shitty simply because I chose to bow out before the relationship starts Quitter, loser, no good for nothing. I always finish what I start, so why am I doing this now? Uh oh here goes the infighting My heart and mind vs. my body and soul The civil war begins where the last one left off @joefresh 2/07

A Blast from the Past pt 2 She sees something in me How can she see past my smoke and mirrors? I can’t get past my own skeleton But she sees that and still wants me for me I am stuck; my mind is in a maze of love My heart is in a chamber at the end of nowhere My perception is deceiving me I am letting my self down and don’t know how I have mastered sabotaging my feelings I have Simply to avoid the pain But the pain lies within the act. I am hurting myself I am my own worst enemy I can’t stop her from loving me So I stop myself from loving me The enemy lies within She wants to be loved the way she wants to be loved And I am too stubborn to let it happen Not in a selfish manner But more like trying to help her help me By not letting me fall or her fall for that matter But she sees something in me She sees past my song and dance She knows I that I know how to romance She stays patient but I can’t wait I want it over before it starts But she pulls me out of the dark The end of nowhere the place I have learned to dwell She knows I love her It ain’t hard to tell She knows my love excel and prevails @joefresh 2/07

A Blast from the Past pt 1 @ jOEFRESH 2/07 I am in love with a moment in time It is something from long ago I am in love with that era That person has changed and I can see it But I can’t get past it I am dancing with uncertainty The same face, laugh and smile But the inside has changed I don’t wanna know what happened But I do want to know but just afraid of the answer I loved her and still do But what am I in love with? The then or the now? She still makes my heart sing a thousand melodies She makes my soul dance with undeniable glee She makes my head spin without dizziness Just in a tizzy of jubilance She is my everything but yet my nothing I can’t have her cuz I can’t be the man she needs That moment in time has changed I see now, it wasn’t her that changed It was me I am stuck in time continuum Loving a blast from the past