Now, I'm not gonna sit here and claim I have no wrongs,let this be perfectly clear! but it does come to a point where you know that you're doing all you can and you get no good in return.
Let me start this story from the day of my operation ,so you guys can understand better.
My (ex,almost..) husband was there to help,and we talked about the steps we're taking,inbetween one preparation and another,one worry and another. He claims we can talk about it more once I'm totally recovered.Obviously I was more than happy to open a dialog,notwithstanding his premise :"I'll keep an open mind,but I can't promise anything" . So the deal was,that I'd recover and we'd examine all the possibilities and see if we really couldn't save this marriage...
He brings me home from the operation and I thank him more than once for leaving this possibility open,and begin asking a few ( neutral ! ) questions about it. He starts getting all upset and agitated and even threatens to leave without buying my painkillers ,just for thatttt!!!!!!!!!!!!
His reasoning? I "forced him to talk" not caring about him :O:O:O:O
I had to beg him to buy my painkillers cause I had nobody else to help and get this!!!: I had to even beg him to get a treat I'd bought for him as a thank you for helping me out.
It looked like a madhouse,I'd say "please! at least get your treat" and he'd shout he wanted out of the house...
I've never been this depressed.I do know , I have my wrongs and at times my behaviors HAVE BEEN MORE THAN UNACCEPTABLE.It's not like he just woke up and started acting up ,but it gets depressing nonetheless,especially because attempts to make amends are met by fake attemps to accept them.
He could have just said to me he'd just not even think about it,but nooooo,he had to be the good guy now ,hadn't he? It was a lot easier to find an excuse as to why I'd be the once who messed it all up.
P.S
comments appreciated , but please , let it not just be the same old :he's mean,you're nice,he's wrong you're right - type of thing.
If you don't have any deeper reflection than that,perdon me but I don't care much then.
