Ok, I need to blog this out. It's been driving me insane for like a week now.
Recently, I was told by someone I had just met, that apparently, I play games and ignore people intentionally....which (I don't know if any of you know me at all) is something that is a big deal to me. I'm not sure if you could get any further from the truth. I like to relax.....talk to people, get to know their story, grow, learn....I'm not fake, I don't ignore people, I try to respond as quickly as possible, and I am not a tease. I don't like "the chase" - being on either end of it actually. Like I said, if you like someone, you do. If you don't, you don't. I know with things it really depends on the gray areas and how you feelin that particular circumstance....but....I was watching Boy Meets World in the middle of the night last night when I couldn't sleep and Topanga said the most appropriate thing to how I was feeling afer all this contraversy, "I AM NOT A PRIZE AND I HATE IT WHEN GUYS CHASE ME. AND THE MORE THEY CHASE ME, THE MORE I GET TURNED OFF." lol. Look, I just like to have fun, have a good time, relax, so please don't come to me with your litle bullshit drama without an explanation or reason first. I don't like all the assumptions without even trying to so much as know me first. So leave me out of it. If you have a legiimate feeling of neglect from me or something I have done that bothered you, please just say to me, "Hey...what's going on?" It's as simple as that. I can tell you that right now....Because it's not personal. If I were pissed at something or if I didn't like you, you would have been told point blank. I HATE GAMES!
I think, some people just like to make assumptions when they are afraid of getting hurt or afraid of falling. I totally understand that.
And I'm sure this blog makes me sound like such a bitch, but I'm not. I just need to get it outta my mind. Because well, I do try to be the best person I can. And I refuse to let people who know nothing about me tear me down like they know everything about me...So drop the assumptions people, and just talk to me....
...I have spoken.
