I know that I have not put in a blog yet but I dont like to babble on about nothing.
But here is a vent...
My husband joined the Army shortly after we got married and now we are still in the States as he traines to go over to Iraq.
He is gone for a wekk at a time and I know that they are doing this to get the guys and the wives ready for the sepertaion but it still sucks.
He got his orders that he is leaving in Dec which means he will at least be able to see our child born in Aug. But then he will be gone for 15 months.
The waiting is unreal.
I know that he is not gone yet but at times I feel like he is. I can feel him wanting to pull away from me in a way so that maybe I will miss him less.
I am so scared that when he leaves I will never see him again.
I cry myself to sleep sometimes becasue I can't seem to get the thoughts out of my head.
I know that they are training him to do things that he will never talk to me about but I wish he could in some way. He holds everything in and I don't want to see him lose it.
My own fears and doudts combine with his own I am sure as his combine with mine. It hurts to know that he is in pain already knowing that I am going to have such a hard time without him.
The problem is at 7 months pergnant now it is really hard to hold in my feelings.
He knows that I love him and I will stand by him no matter what..forever.
