I may look a little different from you and your friends, at first this difference may be obvious even shocking.
Once you get to know me what I look like on the outside will go away until one day like me you are reminded by someone else I look different. someone saying in passing whats wrong with her. I get to the point I dont even notice these people anymore or hear their comments. Its a real shame that in my 33 years I have become use to this; that it has happened so often I dont even think twice about it.
Those who know me know I am a caring, compassionate, easy going person who just wants to be seen as everyone else.. just as I see myself, just as family and those few friends who have seen past what they might not understand see me.
Its frustrating as hell being in my shoes sometimes, all I ask is if you have questions ask, if you have a preconcieved notion of who I am based soley on what I look like talk to me, give me a chance to prove you wrong. I would much rather be confronted about what you THINK is wrong with me than have you assume or whisper about it.
One of these days I wont be able to ignore it any longer and I feel bad for the person who is on the recieving end of that.
Family and friends ask if they should have said something.. assuming that I wouldnt want them to bring more attention to me or something. I am not a confrontational person and I think it would shock the hell out of me if anyone ever did confront the whispers.
So my question to you is are we really that different? I am just trying to live my life without judgement based on how I look. Or are you one of them.. A whisperer, who instead of accepting differences in others fear them and talk about them thinking no one hears? Heres a little secret.. someone always hears, just most choose not to aknowledge the childish act.
I write, this does not make me a writer
I sing, this does not make me a singer
I am overly emotional, this does not mean I cry durring kleenex commericals
I cant spell worth shit
I will never drive a standard shift car
I will one day love
and I will one day be accepted without judgement
I have a disability, this does not make me handicapped or inhuman
