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Sitting along the wall on the lake makes me sense the feelings of others. Quickly realizing that these feeling were mine today. I quickly ran myself to my own mental sanctity. In thought, I transition the feelings into a block for anylizing. To seperate those that aren't important from the ones that are life changing meanings. Subtitled in the back of my mind are the thoughts and experiences of many years in transition. If I can't turn my experiences into learning abilities, then what's the point.
Lately I've felt unimportant(though not true), and unresponsible. Going through times like these I wonder if I REALLY do have what it takes to take care of my family. My soul in lingo, I wonder if my lovely Fiance will ever find that one medium that will ultimately be the epi-center of findings to grab hold of what's for me to have and run wsith it. A spiritual binding that ties us both will inevitably be my demise if I can't react to life the way I'm supposed to.
Keeping peace with myself is extremely difficult it seems when times are hard. So, how can I keep peace with my soul and everyone else if I can't get ahead and remain ahead when things look up. The worste thing that happens is being established with work and being happy, and losing it to something stupid and losing out on time needed for working.
All in all, in light of despereties, I know I will win in the end and I will be back at that point where I FEEL responsible as well as BEING reponsible.
I guess if I have learned anything from this it is......That no matter what life throws at you, keep your faith and always, always remain open minded to what you know and what you may find out in life. Keeping an open mind is key to accepting change in yours or someone elses life-patterns. Be Well All and Blessed Be
