"AN ANGEL COMETH..."
In the darkest hour a voice cries out
A call to the heavens in a moment of doubt
"Oh lord help me. Show me the way.
Provide that which I need to make it through the day.
Fill the emptiness in my heart. Lift my very soul.
Bring me joy beyond all measure upon which to hold."
She arrived as a wave crashing onto the shores of my life.
Like the sun after a storm, she drove away the doubt,turmoil, and strife.
SHe showed me the man I was, and more-so the man I could be.
She came and cleared the clouds presenting the path for which to see.
She was unlike any before in showing how she cared.
She reached out to hold the hand of the child inside that was scared.
In her own unique way, she inspired me to achieve.
The dream within my heart, that it was myself in which I had to believe.
To look inside myself confronting the demons therein.
A welcoming concept...forgiving my own sins.
"I cannot hold your hand in this.You must go face it alone.
I have pointed you towards the path. ou must go forth on your own."
However, I delve too deeply too quickly, not liking what was found.
Instead of confronting my past...I let my past back me down.
Searching for a way out...to bury the pain within.
To face the pain was to endure it...to relive it once again.
Running was so much easier...cowering away in fear.
Pushing away not only the past, but those I claimed to hold dear.
My demons overtook me...denying their demise. I
I pushed my angel away...deaf to all her cries.
I did not see her hand pointing me back to the path
Comfortable familiarity the hurt became. It was all I'd ever had.
I caused my angel pain. How neglected she had felt.
Where I thought she was judgmental...She only meant to help.
Now I stand alone amoungst a sea of fear
No one left to accompany me..save for my dreams and tears.
I cry out in earnest for my angel to return.
I'm haunted by her visage. In my own hell do I burn.
Shadows close around me smothering the light.
Clouds form once more suffocating what was bright.
Lost and alone in a world of my own making.
Feeling empty within from a love that was forsaken.
Oh to get my angel back. To again bask in her grace.
To look into her eyes. To kiss her tender face.
To breath her very breath as I hold her oh so near.
To be bathed by her warm glow shunning every fear.
To feel her touch my flesh as a mother would a child.
To taste her lips of gold. To feel her very heart smile.
Holding her so close...a secure blanket of love surrounding.
Gazing deeply into her eyes as we feel each other's heart pounding.
All of this is gone. Cast away into the nether.
All the dreams are now lost.All the hopes of forever.
The seed of distrust nutured by the shadows...
grew to drive a wedge fruiting only demons of woe.
Words spoken in anger cut right to the core.
Is my angel gone forever..to visit me no more?
If I could turn back time, I'd take her hurt away.
But if I could would I be...the man I am today?
If I could take her pain away, I could take away my own.
I would make it so that within my soul I wouldn't feel alone.
Where do I go from here? How do I win her back?
How do I show her undying love? Can someone tell me that?
An angel cometh to me once upon a dream,
But facing my own fears was not as easy as it seemed.
