a moment when i am layin in low light
i let my self cry b/c u understnd
but tell me has rthe damage been done
as my mind it self toremnets me to tell me not to lose my self
i lay here crying but just one tear ur only aloud one u better make it good
and u rememeber that u to feel u didnt become numb that day
and what was the msg u can take everthing away form me but u cant take away my truth my me what makes me Sheila
u can hurt me stip me rape me beat me but i am still my self even when i lay shattered
even when i am broke
every step that i take theres someone trying to change me
every move that i make theres someone waiting to change me
I am only this way because of what you have made me
*it fills the room the music* ~ i read u know i think ur really pretty when u have ur clothes on <3~
and i hear and i'm not gonna break
i jump up
u can push me out the window i'll just get back up
u can run me over with ur 18 wheeler and i wont give i wont give up up
i understnad what my tormented dreams were telling me
as the demon burns inside me trys to take me over
u know it wont hurt its not like u will be gone u will just not be the one in control
the demon of my night mares tells me
but in the dream i choose to kill my self b4 becomeing like them
i dont wanna be mean i dont wanna be hurtful
i dont wanna lose my self
i wont lose my self over this i wont
and no one can make me be anything but my self
no act can twisted me into something like that
nothing
i have had enuff
i have
i love my self
u can hate me and it dosnt matter
cuz i dont wanna hate u cuz u hate me
i dont wanna be mean b/c i am hurting and u hurt me and add to my pain
i am not an animal that lashes at u cuz i am close to death
my heart may be broken and my body used but i am not close to death
u can make me do anything but u cant change that i dont hate u no matter what u do to me i dont hate u
i'm not that way i not bitter and twisted
i'm not
and i wont hurt u cuz u hurt me
