Darkness NZ's blog: "thoughts of the moment"

I look in the mirror,
and all I can see,
is an unhappy little girl
staring back at me.

Things have happened in my life,
some things I cannot change,
but I am the only person
who has to deal with my rage.

I'm upset because I'm all alone,
and I feel like I have nothing of my own.
I can't take it back,
because I'm ready to go,
because love in my life is something I lack,
and a feeling I will never know. 

I cry all the time
but in front of friends I laugh,
why can't they see it's really a sad smile?
Probably because I make them think crying, 
is just not my style.

I always feel down
and people turn away, 
sometimes it seems as if,
I have nothing left to say.

People don't want to listen
to all the hurt I feel,
they just blow it off,
and tell me it's no big deal.

I cope with problems myself,
because I have nobody on my side,
I cry all these tears alone
because sadness is something I hide.

My friends are friends that never see
if something is really bothering me,
they all have their own lives 
other than to worry about me,
I guess my pain, 
is what they don't want to see.
 
I've thought about letting go
and giving up on life,
but maybe something great can happen
to the rest of my life.

The question still stands,
"Do I stay or do I leave?"
I don't know which one I want,
so for now I'll just be me.

A lonely little girl,
with a broken heart, 
a lonely little girl,
that just needs a brand new start.