XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

Mum i was always your butterfly

i just flew a little to far from you

in your last days i was not there ..

 i was always searching for something ....

i didn't know what it was ..

i'm all grown up now , ive truly spread my wings..

i wish i could show you mum ..

i wish i could show you who ive become ..

you would be be mostly porud of me

 ive tried so hard to be .. everything you wanted ..

and ive learnt my limits  .. ive cried many tears without you ... ive missed your hugs so dearly

 ive missed your warm smile .. your eyes were such a pretty  bllue with kindness shon right through them, your hair was a like a crown ,

with your hands you spent all your time caring for others .. if only you could have cared for yourself too ..

my dear mum , i tried to help you but i was too far away.

 i just wish i had those last days and  moments with you , where we could have hugged and cried together mum ..

i would have given up everything i had just to be there ...

but you knew i loved you mum , you knew i was proud to call you mum ..

it never seemed fair .. that you were taken away when i was so youg .. still trying to find my way in the world ..

but somehow .. i had it though all those years without you

 i did my best .. but sometimes it seemed like it wasn't enough

just to have few more miutes with you , i know youd be over 60 now .. but just to hold your hand to take you something .. would be so amazing ..

i never took you for granted mum , ijust wish id had more time .with you ..

some people tell me not to cry anymore

 but its not thier place to tell me this , it burns sometimes ..

almost a moth to your birthday now , and im still going to get you a card , and write in it ad keep it ..

 i still do my best to remember you ..

bye for now Mum..

with lots of love your

Darling Daughter

i tried .