Six months they say. That's what they give. The powers that be say 6 months. How can you tell someone that they only have 6 months left to live.
I called her on the phone and she is acting so brave, not yet ready to go to hospice, wont come live with me. Says "I have things to take care of"
Six months... how do you take care of everything that needs tending to in six months.
I tell you true, I think not that she has 6 months left. The cancer is rapidly spreading through her body. Once it is in your lymphnodes you know it is the end.
But six months... that hurts so badly. Think of the things that can and can not be done in six months. She was to write a book of our family but then she went blind.
I didn't go see her like I should. What a terrible granddaughter I have been. I should have called her more, I should have visited. How do you make up for ignorance of youth when there is but six months.
Death is nothing new to me, in eleven months we lost 7 people in our family - so I am no stranger to pain or loss or emptiness.
Why did they give a time, why did they say six months, why could they not have said take care of her, love her and enjoy the time left.
Six months just hurts so badly.
