To the man I (might) want to date: I'm a 63 yr old, short, chubby, sweet, sexy & funny lady. I may want to go on a date with you, but I'm shy. I'm shy because I'm afraid. Afraid that my past will come back to haunt me, to the point where history repeats itself. No, I am not an ex-con, nor have I ever been in trouble with the law. I'm afraid of men. A troubled past with them, made me who I am today. I'm afraid that I'll keep repeating this, over and over. I don't want, nor do I need that, anymore, EVER!! I'm afraid that if I say the wrong thing, you'll hit me. I'm afraid, that if I don't fulfill all your egotistical needs, when you want them fulfilled, you'll go out and cheat. I'm afraid that if I ask you a question, you'll only lie to me. I'm afraid of being myself, the smart-ass, quick-witted, humorous, sarcastic little brat, that I can playfully be; that you won't get me. I'm afraid that when I let down my barrier, that you'll take advantage of the vulnerable side of me. Yet, vulnerable as I may seem, sometimes, I'm smart. Smart enough to know a line when I hear it. Smart enough to see the red flags. Smart enough to know when I'm being played. I don't need just a "fuck-buddy" in my life. I am perfectly content, with my own company. I'm afraid that you'll try to control & manipulate me. I don't need anything from you. I have my own place, my own car and my own income. I require nothing, that I can't get for myself. Men don't ask me out on a real date. The old fashioned kind. I don't need flowers from you. I don't need you to hold the door open for me, I don't need you to be a gentleman. But I would like you to be a gentle man. One who might get me, understand me and appreciate me, for the person I am. I am a well-mannered woman. I know how to be a lady in public. But I also like to be totally myself, in the comfort of my own home. I will not dress to please you. I will not wear a shitload of makeup, to make myself look better, in your company. In my own home, I burp, I fart and I am just a down-to-earth, mild tempered, goofy gal. So....if you have interest in asking to meet me for a date, then just ask. But don't be assuming. I will drive myself, to wherever, our date might be. I will pay my own way. I don't want to be obligated to a man, for anything. If I don't feel like there's chemistry, if you just aren't my type, or I, not yours, honesty is the only way to be. I'm not everyone's cup of tea. And that's fine by me. But if a first date, does take place, just remember....I am shy. But shy does not mean, stupid or gullible. I don't drink alcohol, nor have I ever done drugs. Good hygiene is a must. If you want to know more about me, just ask. If I'm comfortable in answering, I will...if not, I'll tell you that, too. Thanks for reading.