ysoserious304's blog: "midnite-stoned poems"

how do you start to tell the end that begins a new day?

How can you start with feelings when you aint feeling ok

Heres a way, take a look at yourself through anothers eyes

And now I see why all my acquaintances look at my life and despise

No one looks underneath to see the pain

No one believes someone could have that fucked of a brain

But instead you see the drug usage and alcohol all the same

So instead of explain I crack a bottle and light my mary jane

Another day in the life another day so bright

But instead another day where I aint seein the light

If I make it out of bed then it might be alright

But solitude fits me best so I think I’ll set tight

I grab the pill bottle so tight, take one or two I just might

Or eat em all up since there’s no point to life

Maybe one day I’ll find it maybe one day it’ll be alright

But I’m a man so I’ll man up and just try to do whats right

But you can’t go wrong if you ain’t got no goals

That means you cant do right unless you shoot for the gold

But fuck it, I’ll just let life unfold

But this time it aint passin me by

I say this time cause I feel like this aint my first time

I’m talkin déjà vu like lifes in re wind

Like I’m stuck at the bottem of a bottle of wine

Between space and time runnin circles in my mind

But till that day I’ll walk around in my mind, in my zone

Wonderin if I’ll ever reach home

Wonderin if I’m really alone

Wonderin if my hearts made of stone

Or maybe I’m just stoned

A god dam drug addict alcoholic thrill seekin regular Joe

That to some just took the wrong road

But I say to anyone that takes that tone

If you ain’t been here before don’t act like you know

Don’t act like I’m a bad influence or asshole

This is the life that I’ve chose

And until something comes along I say cheers

And to anyone that’s dumb and jeers

I got plenty of empty beers

And practice with a gun shootin bottles and deers

I might say I got a slight problem my self

But I work it all out through my health

And my knowledge that’s my only wealth

Aint been through it all but real pain I’ve felt

Just don’t say I’m wrong and I wont say I’m right

I’ll just say bottoms up, toast a blunt, n good nite