ULtRA's blog: "Tower"

   I am writing Fubians after nearly 4 years on this July night in South Florida. I call this blog because I re-interpret life as I've  seen it since then.

I grew up as an only child in June, 1981 with many cousins in Malden, Mass. I was considered over middle class then as my father's dad was rich. My father can be described as just like him, not his mom who is part french/ american and is described as nice, mellow.

My mother was born in Poland and I seem to think I'm more like her as time goes on. 

I think the best words that describe me is defensive, judgemental and different. I tend to live under the notion that I am on a mission to be as opposite as everyone is. (I think I've succeeded in that.) Living in this generation you would think I'm a pimp, going after any female that moves. It (absolutely isn't) the case. I tend to think that when I'm at work, I'm at work and I try to hurry home asap once I get off. As I've gotten older, and worked in the people business where I am suddenly doing well, I have grow bitter about people. I always wash my hands after work and I generally stay home. I go out on Tuesday and Wednesday night only.

I am the only cousin that doesn't bare a child nor had even dated. Yet, I read alot, I am social (in public) and I watch the news / go online daily.

I do beleive most men would likely laugh at my habits and lack of social life, since I left terms with my last good friend in 2002, but really, I have looked at the plus side of things as I prepare to finish community college for economics this Fall 2014.

   I do beleive people are going crazy, and woman are feeling less secure about men they are around. Which leads me to understand why I have had difficulty reaching out to them. I think rap music and bad language has played a major role in society and upbrining of kids. Folks, this is everything. Teach kids to read a book and let's do this, come on.