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I am writing this blog because my heart has cried out to. As I get close to a new age of year, I just have to shed my feelings. I can't find love. The End.
Number of times I got laid :0
Number of friends Ive gone out with in the last 5years :1
Number of car accidents Ive gotten into :2
Number of girlfriends Ive had :0
Number of jobs Ive had 1.5
Number of video games I played in the last year :1 (Mario 64)
Number of girlsI spoke to on the web since 2004 :100
Number of times I went out with my parents :2200
Number of times I insisted on saving $ instead of having fun ;365
Number of times I went out to eat at Hooters alone since 2009 :88
Number of sports I like :5
One could judge me a little from these numbers I gave but you can generalize my life outside of work and college.
Foks I am a normal man, perhaps a little judgemental and defensive of others but I really am a down to earth nice bloke. I do lack a social life and live alone but Im still living proof that it isnt all that bad. Yea I went out alot from 2003 until about early last year but these are the generalization I make of men : they are very irresponsible and dumb. Woman : alot are unique, however as much as it pains me to turn away from the goody miss too shoes, all they want is attention and money. The generalization I make of most people in dating and relationships unfortunately is most think its a 'who can I bang more contest and folks, its just plain gross.
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I am writing Fubians after nearly 4 years on this July night in South Florida. I call this blog because I re-interpret life as I've seen it since then.
I grew up as an only child in June, 1981 with many cousins in Malden, Mass. I was considered over middle class then as my father's dad was rich. My father can be described as just like him, not his mom who is part french/ american and is described as nice, mellow.
My mother was born in Poland and I seem to think I'm more like her as time goes on.
I think the best words that describe me is defensive, judgemental and different. I tend to live under the notion that I am on a mission to be as opposite as everyone is. (I think I've succeeded in that.) Living in this generation you would think I'm a pimp, going after any female that moves. It (absolutely isn't) the case. I tend to think that when I'm at work, I'm at work and I try to hurry home asap once I get off. As I've gotten older, and worked in the people business where I am suddenly doing well, I have grow bitter about people. I always wash my hands after work and I generally stay home. I go out on Tuesday and Wednesday night only.
I am the only cousin that doesn't bare a child nor had even dated. Yet, I read alot, I am social (in public) and I watch the news / go online daily.
I do beleive most men would likely laugh at my habits and lack of social life, since I left terms with my last good friend in 2002, but really, I have looked at the plus side of things as I prepare to finish community college for economics this Fall 2014.
I do beleive people are going crazy, and woman are feeling less secure about men they are around. Which leads me to understand why I have had difficulty reaching out to them. I think rap music and bad language has played a major role in society and upbrining of kids. Folks, this is everything. Teach kids to read a book and let's do this, come on.
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This user http://fubar.com/user/1785937 was a favorite of mine on this site in 2009. I started having a bad turn of a year then and she brightened up my life. She and I would flirt, cyber hug, this and that, and to this day, I would say she remained a 'big deal' to me on Fubar.
But suddenly after having spoiled her a bit on here, she started to disappear.
I sent messages, and comments and still she wasn't around.
That was until a month later in March when she uploaded pics of her spring break, depicting a pool shot of her and... (Her supposed military boyfriend) I had no clue about!
Nevertheless, as always I shrugged it off, because this is internet only, not real life, as I have taken a 'little too serious' at times in the past. But as always, nothing surprises me, and I never get excited much anymore.
Have a nice day everyone, and remember, just do your best.
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Chances are if your a reader you will read this. This is all you should know about Ultra period.I grew up an only child in the 80's in a rich household. I got bullied alot in elementary school and middle. In high school and college I struggled a little because girls distracted me. I was always a hopeless romantic.I didn't graduate college because I am not good at math (2004) I stuck with my 1st job that I currently work in a major supermarket branch in Florida, things were well in that until last year April when I got a demotion. I make average salary for one person. I have a motgage, 4 years left on my new car & bills bills bills.I actually am one of those that enjoys his friendom and yes, at times loneliness. I never dated, don't have kids, never smoked did drugs or anything. I guess overall you could say I'm just a good guy that does what he has to. I do hope to save money to travel more like THIS year, and got back to college once I can sell this place. I don't care for stupid people at all, and sometimes sorry to say, undisciplined kids do annoy me, call me a grump. But that stems to poor parenting which is soo common these days. I detest stupid moronic people and those that lie. I got my first computer in 2003 at age 22. It has helped me understand people and made life easier at times at getting things done. Finally I'll say that I'm not looking for anyone, but a partner would be nice. Someone to hang with. I know here in Florida I found the majority of woman/girls to be sleezy, attention whores, think too much of themselves, or vice versa. But I know somewhere THERE'S NICE WOMAN out there, I just hadn't been lucky. I KNOW this isn't that site really for that, but it's a free way of communication and besdies the girls are hott LOL
Over the course of time, I have witnessed alot in my illustrious, and self-fullfilling life. Fubar has been a 1/8 of it. It's helped me moretheless, witness what's in the heads of the opposite sex.
I have never dated or been in a relationship. Some wonder what is wrong with me, or if I'm really human. I tell them what rests holds in my mind. I work for a living, have my own house and car, and time on my hands. That to me is true happiness.
I'm thankful for all of those called (yous) that have stood by me even if through a computer screen. We are all unique and different in our own way and sometimes it's tough for me to accept that, I only feel comfortable in my own shell.
Perhaps we're all just too buy for love or understand it, but as I put it best, it's like being lost in someone's walls. You'll never find the way out, and thus after this New Year and decade, it's time for my Fubar exit and exploration on 'my own.
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Well here it is, almost three years on this site, for better or worse, and it doesn't get any more prominent than this. Think of this as my tell all" diary about my experiences and what goes on in my head.
In '06 it started off as Cherrytap' and Lost Cherry' before that, when the BabyJesus known as Mike Hedlund, originated 'Fubar' It was a site for being social, and popping your social cherry' Well, after having been through my Myspaces, and Lavalife's just to try to met woman on the internet, and even after my father told me "It's not a good way to meet people" I still did it.I did actually meet 3 people from the internet since 2004 Liz in Miami, ristin in Jupiter and Christine 'Druggie' Alabasa in WPBeach. All lasted a day each.
You see, I was never a relationship type of man. Some guys just have it or care nothing more about it. I have had the dream since I was a little boy as an only child to 'be independant'. And it actually came true.
I work a dead end job once again in a common supermarket here and after a demotion since I did a small series of mess-ups at my job, so now, I have just enough to make my budget, and THATS IT. I miss the life I had before April, when I would have fun on here, since real life just doesn't work for me.
I met some decent friends here on Fubar over the years, beginning with Johnny Devil, and then Chaotic dream, Yep Im her, Crazy Princess, Juicy, Grey,Sexy Chele , Temptress (awhile back), Ms. Carolina, Kristen 76 and do on so forth. But it seems every time I try to make any kind of friendship leading to a commitment to a woman, I just end up getting hurt, or told the truth' somehow, and there's just no single clean ready for the taking' female out there for me.
Conclusively, I have called off my search (definetely on internet) and real life who knows. I still never been with a woman for longer than a
day, and maybe I need psychiatric help. Maybe Druggie Christine "Too much too dream' was right. I just know I need to take a major haitus from Fubar and internet, not sure if or when I'll be back. For all those that showed me love, I appreciate you, and your sweetness. But now, I need to reset my heart, to age 18 perhaps.. Bye it's been real, and remember, what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.
Here is a timeline involving love, school, life, and morals all from my life. This blog will replace 95% of all my blogs thereafter. (c) 2009
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In June, 1981 I was born in Malden hospital, Massachusetts. In 1985 I recall my 1st actual memory of my mom taking me to the Revere mall.
In 1987 I started kindergarten and also my 1st feel of hormones and a lust for woman, my strongest feeling (then) was woman wearing stockings, I loved the feel of it) lol
1989..1990 elementary school and moved to Florida, having to take over 1st grade during half year cause of moving from the 2-story Massachusetts house to Boca Raton, Fl in March, 1990. It was a beautiful house, small and I wish I took it over today, but I'll get to that.. I ridded the haunted nightmares I had of the Mass. home..and started a new life in Florida. 1991..I had Ms. Chevy and Ms. Schachleiter as teachers in school, new girl crsuhes in between a new school closer to my house in Boca and ALOT of bullies... I had to stand up to Chris B. after the bus stop when he challanged me, and he hunted me down.. I got out with a red eye. Jesse Pittman was another bully but we parted ways... I dressed like a real nerd with disney clothes and short shorts.. 1992 I became very adventurous...I had a jam-packed room of goodies all to myself, a TV, a boombox, and Super NINTENDO.lol (took over my life) 1993-'95 I became a pool person, I loved the beach, stayed in school..did ok..but still never had a girlfriend.
I was friends of Dino Delamotta for some time til he got offended by me, and Ryan Kantella who later left me as a friend.
In 1997 I was in High school and started to notice my vision becoming flustered.. I started doing poorly in school at the age of 15, 16. On my 16th birthday I celebrated with Pete Rose and my family at the ballparkl cafe. I started getting into sports finally and grew taller (about 5'7") I never really had a lot of friends even in school, just some running around buds like the Batz Bros. and the Olive brothers (nerdy twins) I still hadn't worked a job until I graduated highscool in 2000. Yes , i WAS MERELY 19 WHEN IT ALL STARTED HAPPENING FOR ME.
Just for the record, lol my dad and grandma loved Nintendo and Playstation , lol just thought I'd say, it was weird.) My father always was in law enforcement, it's been his niche since he moved to Florida. iN 2001-02 I was I guess you could say 'best buds' with Justin S. til 2002 when he suspected me of lying to him about whether I attended a Marlins baseball game. (lol it was a state ahead of me) in a day? I don't think so. [But I really just did it to get my space, WHICH I NEED.] I seriously liked him as a friend, but he's also trouble for me too, with late night raunches and hideouts after midnight.)
In 2003 I got my 1st computer... I also started college finally [well 2002] and I started off with 4 A'S! but then math nearly crippled me. I STILL HADN'T found a girlfriend yet!! In 2004 I had tremendous interest in music and I burned CD's when *it was legal I burned about 18 CD's with just dial-up and my AOL software, windows. I also wored in Publix, my 1st job since 2000 for 4 years then, and thinking about a promotion, to better myself SOMEWHERE. The next year, thanks to Jason Williams at work, I was able to promote to an assistant manager. I made 13-18 / hour. It carried my ass from 2006-2009, when in 2008, I FINALLY MOVED away from my parents with gut instinct.
So here today.. I sit at home wondering if and when fate will guide me to my 1st ever girlfriend..at the rip age of 28... (TBC......)
'From the start of the first plane
To the edge of the next day
First time, and first place
Just know who you are.. "Square One" .Coldplay
Look up, look down look all around, you constantly look for answers, with every dying second of your existance. You stare at the clock, you wonder what everyone you knew or had known is doing at a given time. You contemplate. You think 1 2 3 a b c's and X and Y and wonder just what it is you exist for. You wonder what you'll be known for when you die. Who did Adam and Eve really originate? When did Bill Gates make such an inspiration to the modern world?
The answer isn't as complex as you might think..you see why? Because it begins with 'you'.
We are all after something, someone or a goal for persuit of an originating value. We all want to achieve success. We often don't realize what success is until a certain age, and your higher up enlighten you about it. I'm talking about your parents, who are the reason you exist.
Whether your an optimist, or a rebel , you have to agree on one thing, the reason you exist and the reason for who you are rests on how well your brought up into this world. As I look around and watch the news, from my perspective, I only get more sad and depressed because it's 'the world I know'
But I don't want to sit here and bellyache about how rotten the world is or why was I born in such a bad time, no make the most of it. Thats m message to all of you readers out there. Be good parents, and never take your existance for granted. And take your vitamins.'
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