Trixie's blog: "random ponderings"

So one of my sisters recent started dating someone, no biggie in and of itself. However, they've been dating for a little over a month now and already her kids are suffering because of it. Staying out til all hours of the night, staying at his place, having him come sleep at my dad's house(lives there with her 3 kids) are all things she's taken to doing each week. I don't mind her happiness in fact I'm glad she finally isn't such a lonely crabby bitch. What's bothering me though is that both of her daughters now at separate times have asked me to adopt them because they don't think their mother loves them anymore now that she has a man. I started crying today when my niece (she's 6) asked me that because I don't think a child should ever doubt their mother's love. I guess maybe things were different for me growing up because my parents were married and always put me and my sisters first. I hate this feeling I have in the pit of my stomach about the whole situation. I hate knowing that she'll lock her kids out of the bedroom that the four of them share so she can spend time with him, knowing that they'll sleep with a blanket and pillow on a hardwood floor. I don't know what to do because talking to her hasn't helped and I feel like I'm failing the kids that deserve so much more than what they're getting. I do everything I can to make them know they aren't unloved but I feel completely inadequate in every way and it's breaking my heart.