how long does it take ones heart to heal.. is this the way a broken heart should feel .. i find myself trying to escape awake the loneleiness while im awake .. and in my dreams im in a peaceful slummer ... a slummer in which i will not stir .. my heart and mind focused on my dreams , and my dreaming .. it hurts .. again the lonelieness but the heart needs to heal .. for im not fool .. i was a love for love .. he was world .. he was my everything my air ... and now it seems to so hard to love .. when you know your heart will possibly break .. the heart will find a friend .. a partner , a mate .. someone worth coimng home to .. but until then the journey for finding myself goes on and on .. and i walk alone in the corners of my mind .. along the the dark dangerous streets alone .. no footpath to travel on only road ... and yet i must continue on to find my way way .. feet so sore from working .. cars drive by .. and stare .. so many people around me but few really care ... tears start to fall as i walk deeper into the darkness afraid ... so afriad but i go on and on through the darkness forcing myself to come out the otherside and into the light .. then light seems as scary as the darkness cause in the light the people see me .. the danger is seen .. its real ... so real i can taste it in my throat as i crss the road i waatch the cars i see the faces of the men staring staring at me ... im scared but i walk on .. and on an hour passes still watching over my shoulder still breathing hard .. my steps quicken .. as i reach a place to rest to eat .. i order food .. and then i eat it slowly it tastes so good it warms my empty soul ..and then i pay the lady .. and i walk again this time im closer to home half an hour more i will myself on i cant feel the burn of my feet any more as i keep walking in the darkness scared .. knowing how close to home i am ... walking more and more .. and finallyi reach my street and i see home ,, under a mile a way ... i can make it i know i can .. this night has made me stronger ..