They say life is what you make of it. But when it makes you. It makes you want to take it. I never saw myself being like this! But now all I know is I don't want to stay. To think I can live like this way forever there are only few answers like hell no and noway ever!!! The drugs are what I'm addicted to, but the only people that will understand are few. For the few who know what I'm saying you should know there is no such thing as staying. If you stay then you will eventually die alone. So my advise to you is to get up and at least try!! If you keep trying you will one day make it. You'll be someone you love and noone can take it. I can now say I tried and I made it out of satans hands. I beat the devil and standing alone I'll never have to do because God has beed here the whole time with me!!! Helping me pull trough allowing me to survive this disease. I also need to return the favor to someone that is hurting to and by doing this I may help someone by getting their life back. I might have some knowledge that they didn't know and lacked. I just might be the one idea that kept forgetting to pack. Now that their luggege is all put together the words that I say will go on forever. They will go on to someone in need and not only did I beat it myself I have now planted a good seed. A seed that may grow to help others like me. Because like I said these who are understand are few!!!!!