The last time I saw my grandfather things were dark and just did not look good. I had said happy fathersday to him and had to come home. We were not being told anything positive but we remained hopefull and I know I prayed alot.
I went and saw him yesterday and the difference I saw was amazing. His eyes were open but now they would actually look at you from time to time. My sister asked if he could hear her and he nodded his head. I almost had to walk out cause that made my heart leap almost out of my chest and it was so hard to hold back the tears. Then quick as that he seemed to fall dormant again. I can only guess at the struggle going on inside of his body. Not to mention mind. We do not know if he even recognizes us. For all I know he can preceive us as just another set of doctors or nurses. We know his body is tired and I heard just this morning he actually wiggled his fingers.
The first thought you want to have is woohoo my grandfather is better. Its just not the case. We still dont know what state his body and mind will ever be in right now. We dont know if the movement we are seeing might be all he has in him. There are alot of "don't knows".
We do know he will be in the ICU for at least another month. It will probably be around xmas before thoughts of him leaving this hospital are talked about. It all depends on how he recovers and what gains he makes. Eventually he will need alot of physical therapy because lets face it you lay in a bed for so long things are not gonna function like they should. You don't use your muscle you lose that strength. Trust me I know. From my surgery I have lost all the muscle mass I had and gained 30 pounds of fat from it. You go from throwing 150 couches around to not doing anything it does make a difference. Hell my legs are sore from just walking more so I can't imagine what he will be like.
Another thing I do know is that I honestly think that even this glimmer of hope is being made possible by everyone of my family and friends out there praying for him. There is no other way I see it other than alot of you praying for him and The Lord hearing those prayers and smiling down on my grandfather and wrapping his warm embrace around him. I cannot thank everyone ever enough for keeping me and my family and him most of all in your thoughts and prayers.
Sadly when one door opens it seems another wants to shut. My fiance Sandy is going through her own ordeal with her grandmother. Her grandmother has been in the hospital for along time now. She has been very sick and as of late has taken a turn for the worst. It seems so strange how each of us are facing this ordeal at the same time. We are being tested and it has been hard emotionally on each of us. We try and keep the other strong when both of us are facing our own torments inside. Today she is with her grandmother and they are hoping to take her home so that she may fall into the lords hands in her own home. Surrounded by the pictures of her life lead so wonderfully and fully. Pictures of her husband who will be waiting for her. Pictures of kids and grandkids smiling out looking from everywhere. The warmth of a kitchen with many hours of good ole country cooking smells drifting through the rooms. A place of peace.
I will be gone next week to be at the hospital. I will be staying in the waiting room for the week. Now that my grandfather is seeming to be more coherent I dont want him to think he is alone. We had to leave the hotel across the street because well frankly it already cost of $2,300. Love has no price but when money runs out it is gone and thats another harsh reality. The waiting room has a couple recliners that I have already spent the night in so it wont be a big deal. Gonna ration out some food I am gonna take and I will be good to go. Right now each of our sick family members is whats important. I know Sandy will be with her grandmother as much as possible.
I will try and keep everyone up to date best as I can. Please keep the prayers coming not only for my grandfather but Sandys grandmother as well. Again thank you so much for all prayers and encouragement you all have given me. Still hoping and praying. RON
