Tomorrow is my ultrasound to assure that my uterus is in fact now empty. In some ways its kinda bittersweet. One the one hand we want it to be because that will signal that I am healing and that this will all finally come to an end. On the other hand, it will make it FINAL that our baby is indeed GONE and its a big pill to swallow even now almost 3 months later. I keep trying to hold my chin high and brave this old yet new pain. We have an ornament hanging for the baby on Wednesday as well and hopefully we will be able to meet other parents who have survived this as well. This Christmas will be sweet and yet tough. It will be me and Mikes first Christmas AND the first Christmas knowing the baby is gone. I hope that I can make it through without crying though I am thinking I am not gonna be able to. Thank you all for stopping in to read and being my friends...you are all great!
