I feel like I am a part of Dave's life from a distance. We have agreed to back off some and talk a little less out of respect for me and Mike. We still talk on the phone occasionally and online some. I have asked him if this is just useless spinning our wheels....will anything be able to come of us while I am with Mike from the inside or even on the outside with Mikes knowledge and consent? Dave feels that if we want it bad enough we will find a way to make it ok with all of us. I have told Dave that through is past actions that he will ultimately be the one that has to prove himself by moving here when he comes home from Iraq and such and he is aware of that. I have told him that due to how he treated me before...that all decisions are made out of respect and deference to Mike because he is the primary in my life now and though that is hard for Dave to understand...he says he would agree that having me in his life in some fashion is better than not at all. Guess I have spilled enough for now...you all might think I am crazy but I will tell you ONE thing that I KNOW....I am human with human emotions and they are NEVER neat and tidy.
