shadowwolf's blog: "shadowwolf"

a shot a cry a swift prayer flashing light please i dont wish to die here a soft gentle hand smoothing a troubled brow sweet caress dreams of tomorrow you are lost but not forgotten with your life freedom is boughten unknown but honored my bones still stir every step i can hear yet closer still the world is near forget me not we did not die in vain a quiet turn 21 steps again forward 21 steps again and back unknown and honored never a name to lack proud once i did stand now i lay quiet every inch still americans soldier man remember my sacrifice when our flag goes by unknown remembered americans pride thank you george for this

changes begun and i cannot turn them around your voice in my ear dont give up on what weve found i want to quit to run away promises i made i must stay how can love be so cruel to let me be your one but only for a few still ill try be what you say i am is harder now that your not my man im letting you go they same way you caught me slowly painlessly gently be easy dragon your girl is ok she just wishes it was still yesterday

a message of despair and another i receive cant reach and hold them just sit and grieve both who have lost mind heart and soul how do i stop them from reaching there goal both hurting and bringing pain to there own brain as i can do not but wait and worry again 1 cuts maybe today too deep the other hides in a bottle and weeps and i sit and worry a world away hoping my love keeps them safe 1 more day

just a lil of the top i know what im doing and when to stop watch the beads grow and swell this i control my own piece of hell you cant understand the road ive been down its easier like this no matter whos around i need the power over this all please let me cut it stops my fall just a lil of the top i know what im doing and when to stop

running wild free always in danger from hunters cougars and man caught penned corraled a cowboy standing at the gate holding oats can smell there sweetness hear his gentle words know i can still run but with him only not free and i cannot resist so i keep walking slowly closer noises behind other mustangs being broken harshly broken without the knowlede paitance the cowboy has or his love months of coddeling and firm patience owned at last riding the wind with him on my back can see hear the wild ones still can whinny to them the cowboys hand gentle on my withers reasurring comforting loving and we walk on together

they found that man guilty of all he did the rape kidnapping and murder of that little kid he'll be sentenced sometime next week i watch and remember try not to freak her dads anger her moms tears of woe in Florida to the chair he may yet go its to late to save her shes been gone awhile just news shot photos left a lost smile the the lawyers will plead compassion and mercy i wonder if he gave any did she see i watch the case my girls held close the 5/6 year old a pale ghost of to bed they go in safety while i spend a moment with a memory they caught that one i hear me say to bad they weren't there on our day my shadow nods her little head yes but yours are safe tucked up in bed i weep for her loss and she for mine two separate people caught in time let me go please the guilt the nightmares too it wasn't your fault what could you do i am here i know you will not forget but Michele the woman should not regret my hands and heart shake as she i draw to one her eyes dark and light shadows and fun remember me before that day i know you can kickball playing tag the ice cream man i nod slowly forcing myself to see the girl before all the tragedy a weird sensation a sense of fear a childlike whisper i can barely hear i am you as you are me thank you for letting go we can both now try be free i wrote this a year ago hoping to be there not here still waiting for dawn more things i am rembering this week hard things the barriers the hell door grows weak hope all the new pain is worth it wish i could sleep by darknesses shadow......

i sit on my bed trapped in my mind safest place for a childhood like mine i need to find a safe place a friend i can tell all of my hurts to so i can stay well she flys in through my breaking mind a small blue dragon one of a kind she lays her head into my heart saying im starfire lets start im here for you it is why im blue no one else can see me except you when the world is harsh and cruel i michele am your escape tool you can tell me all i will be here through your laughter your fear and tears i am the one who swallows your pain you will remember but not feel again when the bad men come and do what they do we will fly me and you when fights happen beyond your door well fly faster higher than ever before your never alone child i am here she hands me her soul stone it catches tears one thing michele you must never forget a starfires love is not to regret i am a gift to broken hearts souls and minds as well i will save you lift you from hell i listened hard took it all in barely heard my drunk parents din we have flown all over the world a starfire dragon her battered girl i saw stilton england the night nana died when dad was drunk in montana we did hide when i was raped she was there too long flights then just us two over the years as time has passed she let me cry taught me to laugh through the toughest world i have survived with my alter ego starfire at my side

standing at lands end my back pressed close to the walls of the old lighthouse. the roar from the ocean almost threating my right to be here, the clap of thunder and the taste of sulpher and salt in the back of my throat .the steady crashes of the broiling see in tempo with my beating heart ,the roiling black clouds taking over the heavens showing mother nature there wrath .the lighthouse and i bathed in the eerie glow only cast from lightings continous strikes. the tingle of anticapation as i realize the lighthouse and i are one against sea and the wrath of the heavens

a doms stance a subs eyes no room for others lies one key word she controls all the lash the pain the climb the fall a trust so deep the rest of the world is blind hers his inhibitions left behind a different door i have opened wide i will face my wants and step inside i have found acceptance for all i crave i kneel before you master your sub your slave

morning is a little child who woke up with the sun morning is a little child whose life has just begun afternoon is the teenager running out to play afternoon is the teenager whose life has gone astray evening is the old man whose life is all but gone evening is the old man whose love carries on