carebare126BartenderThe Ace Cafe's blog: "Poetry"

Leaden Heart Steel-grey clouds weighed down with unshed tears of pain. Covering this heart of mine with the anguish and blocking out the the sun to my heart. Making the day even more bleak,grey and unforgiving. Why do they cry with such pain?Are they as alone as me? Do they cry for me as if to say we understand your pain? Darkly leaden clouds cover the land making my soul even more broken with each tear that falls from the sky. Did the clouds and rain come because of me or did I create them within my broken heart. Missing you fills my heart with unshed tears of pain if they would but fall like the rain. Will this burning anguish ever stop killing my heart. Only when I hear from you once again will this awful day come to an end. So hurry and return to me before my whole world comes crashing down. Bring back the light and sunshine to this darkened heart of mine or I shall surely die. Only with the warmth of your love will the roses in my soul finally come forth and bloom. Till that day my heart will be forever leaden and grey.

Entertwined Hearts Two hearts crying out in the night. Each calling with longing for the other. Connected no matter how far away. Each needing the other; knowing the others pain. Calling out over time and space. Entertwined before time began. Brought together by God's loving hand. Both broken and alone ashes scattered to the wind. Some how by fate they have found one another again. Feeling the others pain and fear;they respond to the others call. Each hoping their not to late to stop the others downward fall. Sorrow and sadness has each filled their lives. Now like a soothing balm they ease the others pain. Slowly with love and tenderness they each hope the other is not beyond repair. Two Entertwined Hearts have touched each other tonight. Speaking as only two halves of a whole can do. Reaching, striving to repair the damage that has been done. Now knowing they are not alone but by God's love and grace have finally come home.

Dream Child So soft and sweet I hold you close to feel my heart beat. You smell so good all sweet and innocence. Softly I sing a lullaby as you curl in a tiny ball upon my breast. Not a sound you make not even a tiny peep. For you my darling are fast asleep. How I have dreamed of this day for so long. To hold you in my aching arms. I have waited for an eternity it seems to me. Now you are here where you belong. What is that noise I hear? What could be calling me? What has aroused me from my peaceful slumber? I turn my head to see what has awakened me from my pleasant dream. A alarm clock has rudely awakened me from my sweetest of slumber. With blaring noise and bright numbers shatter my dream. As my head falls back to the pillow I wish for you to come back to me. Please I pray make my dream a reality. Bring my precious child to me.

Dappled laughter Dappled laughter on the ground looking for you all around. If I could but bottle your laughter to have it forever after. Watching your young hearts glow and changing as you grow. Play my children while you can for soon the future will be at hand. Time flows by so fast soon making the present the past. Looking back you will say that is the way we always played. When you watch your children run around and hear dappled laughter on the ground. But for now you are still mine and in my hearts be children for all time. So let your dappled laughter ring out clear why my little ones I hold you near. Now as I look around searching for the dappled laughter on the ground. I watch as you run and play cherishing this very day. Watching you chase bugs and laughing with delight or seeing you watch the stars at night. Making me feel young at heart hoping against hope we never part. Knowing that time does not stand still though it is what I will. Though knowing one day you won't be around I will still look for the dappled laughter on the ground.

Magical Words. Wind whispering through the trees delivering your heavenly words of love on gentle breeze. Filling my heart with an ancient and mystical song. Oh how I revel in all it's powerful words. I greedily drink them in committing them to my heart and mind. Wrapping myself in your warm cocoon of sacred words. The beating of my breast quickens as your silken words envelope my soul. So powerful are your magic words that I'm entrapped like a moth in a web. Flowing over me like a gentle wrap full of warmth, love, and faith. Etching them upon my very soul while soaking up every honeyed drop. Softly I cast my spell of love. No sooner have I spoken them when they are stolen by the wind. And carried away upon speeding wings to you. Fly away wind carry true to the one I love, I beg of you. Carry my spell across time and space. Over mountains, rivers, and valleys below. Let nothing keep you from your stead. Hold my love in your heart and soul. Wrap them around your sweet heart. Know that I need you forever in my life. No matter the miles between us I'll always be yours.

My Forbidden Love As I lay upon my softened bed with gentle thoughts of you racing through my head I listen to the rumble of thunder roll across the sky while I see you in my mind's eye. The soft dripping of the rain is lost to me as I try in vain. To stop these feelings of love you tell me are so wrong even though I have not had them for very long. You say you can not love me for I belong to another and that I should not love some other. Longing to be your love and your wife knowing this will only bring you strife. I sit here amongst my turmoiled filled thoughts with visions of what my love for you has wrought upon your heart. In your heart you say I have filled you with pain for what I have come to feel you can never feel the same. How many nights alone I have lain awake with restless turning in my bed while secret sinful thoughts of you fill my head. Longing for the warmth of your gentle touch and strong embrace.Thinking of how I wish to feel your heated kiss makes my heart race. Never knowing real love before now, this painful longing I must endure somehow. So my secret love shall be forever hidden in the garden of my heart.Where it was destined to grow from the start. In my heart and mind my secret love will bloom for all of time. To the very depth of my soul shall my secret love forever flow forever making my heart glow. This loneliness I must endure for my love you are so distant like a hidden shore. Never to touch your beautiful face and feel your gentle loving grace. If but only for a moment I could hold you close to feel the beat of your heart beneath my skin.I would survive through any trial if only I could be yours for just awhile. You will always be my secret longing and secret need.You will be the secret rose blossoming inside of me. So tell me I am wrong and scold me as you will but my love will always belong to you still. So when you lay your head upon your pillow know that as you do I am thinking of you.While in my secret heart I am praying that just maybe you are thinking of me too. 8/1/07

Secret Longing Aching throbbing burning alive. In the images of my own mind. Needing longing for your touch. Wanting to feel you so much. Dying of heat and flames. Wanting to hear you cry my name. Anguishing to have your flesh upon my flesh. To feel your harden chest against my breast. Needing you to kiss me again and again. Lustful thought so full of sin. To feel your mouth upon my secret self waiting for relief. Begging you for sweet release. My mind fill with images of seductive sins. Fighting them but knowing they will win. To find you intertwined in my silken legs. With one thrust you make me beg. Makes me yours I softly moan. Take me make me all your own. Rumpled sheets clutched in my hand. Reaching for that promise land. Faster and faster driving me out of my mind till I explode. Quivering and shaking you hold me close. Trembling and shaking I lie. As you tell me now you are truly mine.