carebare126BartenderThe Ace Cafe's blog: "Poetry"

Hidden Heart For so long locked away and hidden in the dark. Is where you placed your lonely heart. Scarred and broken from misuse. Hiding it from the world's abuse. How I wish and pray to erase those scars. Which were placed upon your heart. If only I could wrap you in my loving arms. I would hold you forever safe and warm. I would do anything to see your precious face. Bathed in love's light and grace. To find the hidden key what must I do. Shall I say a million I love you's. To touch your soul and make it glow. With gentle love make it whole. Tell me what I must do to save you from this place. Filled with betrayal's disgrace. They took your honest gift of love. Broke it and scattered it like the stars above. With my loving hands I'll wipe away. Those broken tears that flowed down your sweet face. Hidden heart you've locked away. I will find the key and release you someday. Until that beautiful day. Hold fast to love's golden ray. For I shall find the hidden key. Bringing your love home to me.

Earthbound Angels Angels walk this Earth not the ones above. Earthbound Angels their hearts full of love. You can't tell who they are by their halo or their wings. Only through the beautiful light that in their hearts does sing. Little do they themselves know who they truly are. For they walk the path of men tripping and tumbling they often become marred. This is God's plan and design for life. For how can one truly say change if you have never lived one day of strife. They walk where other angels fear to tread. Where good people often huddle in dread. With every step they take evil creatures hide and hang theirs head in shame. Because where evil and darkness once reigned has now become God's domain. The Earthbound Angels lift the hearts of every women,child, and men where ever they roam. They will continue to do so till God calls them home. For when the Angels are called to Heaven to stay:God will have this to say. My beloved Earthbound Angels you have done your best. I know that you are weary now so it is time to rest. For once where there was only fear,sadness, and pain. Now love, hope, and goodness remains. Although short was your time on Earth you have changed many lives with your light. You have done your jobs well for now I see the Earth has become a brighter place before very eyes. Love and truth prevail where there was once despair and lies. Everywhere I look I see your good works. Never more my Angels shall you roam:because my Earthbound Angels you have finally come home.

Don't let my babies die. My children's screams ring in my ears as the car is filled with fear. It has only been a moment but seems an eternity. Their screams of fear cuts me like a thousand shards of glass. I can only pray to God this won't last. Please I beg in that instant don't let my babies die. Take my life if you must but don't let them be hurt. I can feel their fear like the dark cloak of death wrapping around my heart. Praying for their lives as we hit the ground. Please oh don't let a mothers worst fear come true. This mother is begging you. Don't let my babies die. I hear my heart scream and cry. Lord don't take away all I have without them I would not last. So precious are my children hearing their cries of fear as mere seconds pass. God I beg you please spare their sweet lives and don't let my babies die. On the ground on our side I look around. There they are safe and sound. Please let the door open no it won't. Fear fills me but I must stay calm. Reaching up I try the window oh yes it opened to my shaking hand. I grab each one and push them through telling them "I love you". Still must get away from the car we have not yet gone far. There are helping hands and police say how can you stand. You should not be alive or walking about. In my heart I hear a happy shout God heard my prayers and we are here. Thank you for your grace because of you today my babies did not die. Hold each day precious and true and hold your loved ones close to you. My worst nightmare could have come true and I would have been lost without you. But because God heard your mother's cries my precious babies you did not die.

Your Fault! They took all my innocence from me an said it was my fault. They touched me where they should not and said it was my fault. They made me cry and want to die and said it was my fault. They ripped me apart and killed my heart and said it was my fault. They made me feel dirty and ashamed and said it was my fault. They stole my childhood from me until there was nothing left of me and said it was my fault. They were the monsters who hurt and killed me inside and said it was my fault. They were the ones who did me wrong for so long and said it was my fault You stole everything precious and dear to me and said it was my fault. It was not my fault it was all your fault! I will never forgive you for the things you did to me it was all your fault! I will never truly ever trust again it was all your fault! I will never have my innocence again and it was all your fault! I will never be the same again and it is all your fault!

Two halves one soul. I hear the rustling of the leaves and feel the warmth upon my skin. The sweetest scent of blossoms fills the air. Softly falling petals gently cover my silken flesh. As if they are saying a little modesty please. You brush them from my skin making them flutter away like butterflies on the wind. Pressing your flesh to mine drinking from my honeyed lips. As you run your hands through my downy hair. Sounds of pleasure escape my lips as you make us one. My arms and legs intertwined around your flesh. Keeping you so close there is no escaping my embrace. Your mine for all eternity and I'm your slave. Each belonging to the other. So completely addicted to your touch I can't escape your silken web. Hurry our hearts and bodies cry out, don't stop we are almost there. Our bodies and hearts scream in unison. Exploding and burning with a fevered pitch we cry out in ecstasy. Our hearts softly slow as we hold one another close while gentle words of love are exchanged. Together forever we will stay in one another's arms. Two souls intertwined for all of time. Two halves one soul I am yours and you are mine.

Sweetest Angel of Mine How sweetly I waited for you to arrive. My arms aching to hold you close. How long I have waited for you to fill this void in my heart. One that only My Sweetest Angel can fill. Sweet Angel of Mine you are God's greatest divine. Sweet and soft as a downy feather. Holding you in my strong arms makes me feel so weak. How could someone so tiny and helpless bring me to my knees. Strong I may be but when I look into your eyes my strength just melts away. My sweetest Angel for you have taken over my soul. No one can steal my breath or heart away as you can. So many things to teach you yet I myself am still learning. Afraid I'll stumble and fall in your eyes. I pray my Sweetest Angel that I can handle what lies ahead. May you always know how much I love you Sweetest Angel of Mine. For you are my life and my light that keeps me whole. May I never fail you oh Sweetest Angel of Mine.

Still Here. Though from this Earth you have parted you are still here. I see you in my children's faces you are still here. I see you in the lessons learned you are still here. I see you in my helping hand you are still here. I see you in my love of land you are still here. I see you in the wind and rain you are still here. I see you in the sand and grain you are still here. I see you in my reflection in the mirror you are still here. I see you in everything I do and say you are still here. I see you in the light of day you are still here. I see you in the moon's rays you are still here. Where ever I go your in my heart so you are still here.

Precious Mother My precious Mother you wiped away the tears that fell upon my face. My precious Mother you loved me even when I fell from grace. My precious Mother you stayed up countless hours when I was ill. My precious Mother you picked me up when I fell. My precious Mother you held me close when my heart was broken. My precious Mother always gave me love's token. My precious Mother you kissed the bump upon my head. My precious Mother you tucked me safely into bed. My precious Mother you were always strong. My precious Mother you showed me right from wrong. My precious Mother no one can ever replace your sweet face. My precious Mother in my heart will always be your place. My precious Mother this poem can never be enough. My precious Mother to show you how you are truly loved.

Night Out Fans whirring above my head stirring the air. Sounds of silverware and ice clinking in my half filled glass. Two kids arguing across from me while the other sits next to me oblivious to my presences. Condensing water slowly slipping down my glass only to soak my napkin. Orders are taken now we wait while the kids make their noises. A night out rare not easy to do yet a welcome change of pace. Worth the time and money spent to keep my kitchen clean. Plus a much needed rest for me.

My Deepest Ocean Lying here I see a vast ocean of stars above me. Watching them I feel some how connected to this world. I watch them wishing I could swim among them. To freely swim among them in that deep dark ocean and see the world from above is truly heart wrenching. Counting the stars would be like trying to count a drop of water in the sea or a grain of sand on the beach. Laying here wishing I was floating among the stars in the silence of space at one with the universe. Feeling and seeing how tiny and child like I truly am compared to the vastness of the sea of stars. Connected but separate from everyone and everything.At one with the universe but alone. Quietly I set my soul free to swim among the stars heeding their call to me. What wonders await my minds eye: new worlds, new life forms,and new wonders to behold. Each star a tiny fish in the endless ocean of space calling for me to swim free among them. Oh how my heart fills with wonder at their sight waiting in anticipation for the wonders to be revealed to my hungry eyes. Letting myself be free from my earthly bonds I go where their call leads me. To absorb the wonders they reveal to my soul. Filling me with peace and joy helping me find my place in this world. Knowing that I will again swim among the stars someday. My heart full of beauty and wonders to share with your soul. Knowing I have learned so much but still so little. I say goodnight to my star companions and thank them for allowing me to swim freely among them in their ocean. Promising that I will again someday return to swim among them in their deep and endless ocean home. For now I am home again and filled with knowledge that I gladly share with your heart. Of how we are simply tiny parts in God's grand design. So next time you lay under the ocean of stars set your soul free and come swim among them with me. You too will then behold the glories of the universe that they reveal to you and be at one with me.