I just can't take it my brain needs to stop thinking I really am in a off mood lately. I am just tired of living the life that I am. I have a wonderful son however his dad well thats another story I am stuck dealing with him he gave me a seperation but won't sign the papers till my son is 18 so I am stuck having to deal with him on everything and it's not fair I can't do what I want to which is just go away right now. I want to find someone who wants me for me someone to be my friend and my lover! Just once I want someone to want me for me! I can't and i don't think i ever will I'm not pretty I'm not a super model I'm just me!!!!! Why can't i just stop why can't I find someone who wants me for me and wants to care about me I'm almost 31 years old and yeah can honestly say I made the biggest mistake of my life marrying my son's father because i didn't love him and never fell inlove with him but i married him for my son now i want to love and i can't find it cause i am me and im an ugly me and ppl tell me that all the time especially my ex so it has to be true
