I've been doing so badly keeping updates on here. I'm mostly on my facebook. But here's one they haven't seen yet.
So this year I got diagnosed with cervical and colon cancer. My body fought it off. Then I ended up with tumors in my lung. That's benign. Well I just found out I now have tumors in my brain and they don't know how long I have to live. I have told select friends on facebook. But like... one on here and realized NONE of my friends here know whats going on. So I was told I could live for years, they don't know yet. But it will be painful I'd been getting headache that would kill the devil. And started getting seizures. They jumped the gun and told me epilepsy. -_- Put me on hard drugs. Then I started having heart problems due to the drugs. So they took me off cold turkey and I've been having withdrawals for the past 2 days. I feel better now aside from a lot of sweating. But I'm alive for the most part. Now here's why I'm not upset. My body has fought off 3 different cancers already. I don't do chemotherapy. Why? It will kill me. I have bad kidneys to the point where chemo would be kind of iffy and I decided to go it with out. Well the nice thing about it is I don't look sick. It didn't kill my immune system so it's fighting off the cancer on its own. SO with the luck I've been having this one will the triumphed over as well. Let's just hope. I'm stressed and worried yes. But what am I to do? Be pessimistic and woe is me and let my depression kill me? When you cry "I'm dying, I'm going to die" guess what, you set yourself up for it and you do. If you're optimistic you stand a better chance at living. So that's my plan.