AngelicDarkness's blog: "miscellaneous"

It's like I can't catch a break the second I get one minute of happy the whole thing shatters apart .. Never have I ever. Remembered a time of lengthened happy. It always only lasts a second like a blink ... It always goes as fast as it came . I'm really to tired to fight for it any more I succumb and just guess I will deal with miserable . It's just to hard to fight to be happy when it ends up causing so much pain

i cant tell you in the silence and the dark

how much i want to stab you through the heart 

and hear my pain brought out in your screams

then you will truly see what i see in my dreams

the pain and suffering you have caused

the hole so big theres not enough gauze in the world to fill it 

when i look at you i whisper to myself i want to kill it

just because i appear weak doesnt mean i dont want to make you speak

begging for mercy while i take your soul and send it to hell 

then you will know where you sent mine so many years ago

the darkness well ,burns and swells 

your pain will make me smile 

do not anger a woman scorned 

why is it you find someone who is your exact soul so similar to yourself that its like you were twin s  in another life and you care so much for them and yet they have to live sooooooooooooooo fucking far away?i mean you both have been broken by evil people and  when u talk to them they make u forget it ever existed .....like they are the only thing that makes you want to live period....they are the last thing  you think about before you fall asleep then you dream about them then when u wake you worry if they are alright  ...every time there is silence you hear their voice ...you close your eyes and its their face you see .... you cant help but have some cheesey ass grin on your face when you speak to them .....your heart races when they whisper into the phone to you ........makes ya wanna pull out your hair because they arent near you ...or ball your eyes out... its like the universe is out to get you or something

this song explains it all

http://youtu.be/ichCCegTbnA

hiding in my thoughts

wandering lost in your dreams

can't help but feel like im hanging by a string

holding my breath in the hopes nothing is real

holding back pent up screams

til my lungs feel like they will bust at the seams

some days feel like they will never end

others feel like they cant even begin

dark and dreary seems like the only way

i wish my mind would stop and stay in place

feeling lost is a close hateful friend

hoping ill be found in my wanderings

time to stop thinking and go on instinct

wishing it would all end

I'm lost on my path hoping to find my way

 

the broken heart(aka john's poem)

i see something shattered on the ground smashed beyond normal repair

it is beautiful and full of pain and ache

i pick it up and wipe away the dirt and dust

i wash away the tears that have been shed on it

and i lovingly place it one piece at a time back together knowing it will never be completely whole again

but i will try anyway 

i try to leave the pain and hurt out

but it turns out they are a necessary evil

because with out them it cant be whole

i know thisand as i am placing the pieces back together i shed a few tears because of the pain

this something carries hurts to be seen at times

but i will mend this

i can and will willingly carry some of the burden for you are wonderful and i know it will never be whole again

a piece will always be missing but i will help hold this together because after all what else are friends for?

ill save the schpeal wolf had cause  well i cant be assed to type it all out or copy and paste

1.) i lost my virginity when i was 4 because my brothers best friend thought i would make a nice sex toy

2.) for the longest time i thought that sex was the only way to know if someone loved you until i turned 15 and  the guy i dated broke up with me the day after he had his way with me

3.) i regret my marriage but not the angels who were spawned from it

4.) i do not joke when i say i have psychic tendancies  ever since i can remember i have been able to see the deaths of people in my family it has progressed to include exact details of my daughters conception to birth i knew what she would look like two years before she was even concieved

5.) on occasion i have horrid night terrors

6.) i have a reaccouring night mare of me being 3 inches tall and everyone else being full sized and being stepped on by everyone

7.) when i get in a car i have visions of being in a fatal car accident while im behind the wheel .i dont know if it makes me more cautious or more dangerous but i have never been the driver in an accident

8.) i scream alot ..it seems the only way i get heard

9.) im terrified of spiders big or smalli will freak out and find something to kill it with

10.) im scared to death to be alone in a house at night with out my dog due to having someone break in to my home and we are working on sign commands to teach her to respond to incase im home and someone tries to break in ive been working on teaching her to knock them down and sit on them if she doesnt know them and we arent around

ok so im sittin here and im readin punkins blog and i look up and morgan takes 4 steps from the couch towards her walker...omg im so psyched that just made the day that started out with me being called a bitch 6 times b4 i even lifted my head off the pillow WAY better haha sorry had to share

PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINKABOUT THIS IT IS MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT MAKING SOMETHING LIKE THIS